Later on that day I received a visit from the most unexpected person, Thebe. He was in town so he decided to come and see me and he had also come to drop off a wedding invitation. Now you can imagine how powerless and fed up I was beginning to feel, so many weddings to digest! I thought it was his until I opened and learnt that it was Thapelo's. It seemed like people were getting married everywhere. Thebe was looking hot as usual. Seeing him brought back a lot of feelings but I knew that I had to contain them for my mother's sake.
Thapelo is one of our straight friends from Cape Town. He managed a gay club that Thebe and I used to frequent and we ended up becoming friends because of his open mindedness. I believe that if a straight guy can be comfortable with gay folk, it means that they are already comfortable with themselves. Men that try to make gay men feel uncomfortable are mirroring exactly what it is that they feel. Thebe stayed for a while and we got to catch up and also discuss what we would wear for the wedding which was to happen in exactly two months from that day.
I called Cliff who works in the fashion department and I set up an appointment with him so that he could design something for me to wear at the wedding. That was another nice thing about 3Complex, the fact that we had everything we needed at our disposal.
Thebe told me that he had moved on with his life and that it was hard for him but he knew that it was for the best. He told me he missed me and I felt the same. I felt like if Thebe was still in my life, none of the drama that I was faced with in Joburg would have happened. My life with Thebe was very mellow and I got used to that serene kind of set up until I returned to Johannesburg. I was happy to learn that Thapelo was finally getting married to Olebogeng. Thapelo chased that girl for four years before she eventually gave in, and when she did, Thapelo did everything in his power to ensure that Ole stays happy. They had the kind of relationship everyone envied. One could have sworn that they never had downs in their relationship but the manner in which they handled their downs was what made them such a special couple.
Thebe left and then I went up to the fashion department to see Cliff. He took my measurements and highlighted the fact that I was losing weight. I just laughed it off. He then told me that he would send me some sketches the next day so that he could know what it is that he must make for me. "So do you really think I lost weight?" I asked him because I was really concerned. "Darling, have you looked at yourself lately, you look like you died two days ago!" he said. Clifford was brutally honest and for the first time that day, I looked at myself in the mirror and saw how I let myself go since Cape Town. I was clearly not handling my break up with Thebe as well as I thought I was and obviously being in Johannesburg meant that I got to stress more than I would whilst I was still in Cape Town.
I booked myself into a spa that day and set an appointment with Noma who happens to be my hairdresser so that she could do something with my long disoriented dreadlocks.
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