Busted! - Chapter 11.5: Saturday: The Big Guy Day

It was Saturday and the day of the party had finally arrived. I woke up next to KG yet again. Well he came to my room the night before because it was a tad bit cold and he couldn’t sleep so he decided to invade my privacy and keep me up all night talking about the future, his father and the party. I got to see the real KG. He had dreams and he wanted to make it far in life. I kept on giving him pointers on what he should do and I told him that if he needed any help he could consult with me or Sihle because I wasn’t sure how things really were between him and Gavin.

KG then confessed to me that he had always had feelings for me but he realized that I loved Lincoln because every time he would try to tell me how he felt, I talked about Lincoln. I just thought he was lonely. He was filling some void that made him feel as if he loved me when he really didn’t. He told me that it had been that way since high school but the problem was that I never saw him as a potential boyfriend, I only saw him as a friend. I really wanted to think that I was imagining things and that he wasn’t aware of what he was saying but he kept on talking about that the whole time. “Why do you think I kept on trying to break you two up? I wanted you for myself and seeing you with him just made me realize that he was more of a man than I was because he stepped up and stayed with you through thick and thin” KG added. As the conversation was deepening, Lerato called KG to tell him to wish Thobile a Happy Birthday on her behalf. That little devil! We didn’t even know that it was her birthday and she said nothing about it. I tried to get out of bed before KG pulled me back and tried to kiss me. I actually kissed him back and as intense as it was becoming, I kept stopping him from doing more than he was supposed to. “I love you Earl” he accidentally said. When he realized he had said that, he clenched his teeth and closed his eyes. I kissed him on the forehead and jumped out of bed.

I ran to Thobile and Morithi’s room to give Thobile a rude awakening. When people heard me singing to her, they too came running to the room as confused as they were and also started singing. We dragged her out of bed and put her in a tub of ice cold water. “You guys will give my babies the flu” she complained. We had clearly forgotten about her pregnancy, but it was just one random cold bath, I’m sure it couldn’t have hurt her.  Morithi was out so we knew that he was getting her something. Later on that day, KG and I went to the shops to get her a present. Well that was the intention until I saw all those baby stuff, I couldn’t stop buying. KG kept being affectionate, pulling me, biting my ear amongst other things and I was just so uncomfortable because I didn’t know how to react. It felt good though. I told KG that I wasn’t ready to date again and besides even if I was, I wouldn’t want a guy like him. I wanted someone who would be able to be with me holistically, and that means no barriers, parents should know, he should be open and PROUD, the works. I thought that would turn him away. “Well we can let my mother know as soon as everything dies down.” KG said. I just laughed and continued buying things. I didn’t think he was serious.

KG was convinced that he was my soul mate. They say at the age of 21 you have already met your soul mate; I was 23 and still waiting. KG really wanted us to try something out. I really would have loved to but that meant a lot of things would change, besides I wasn’t in the mood to start again but he kept on insisting that he would make it work. He said he wanted to tell everyone about it and I told him not to rush into things. It seemed like the more I stopped him, the more eager he was to actually make things happen between us. What had I gotten myself into?

NB: Busted continues on the 15th of December 2014.

Busted! - Chapter 11.5: Saturday: The Big Guy Day

It was Saturday and the day of the party had finally arrived. I woke up next to KG yet again. Well he came to my room the night before because it was a tad bit cold and he couldn’t sleep so he decided to invade my privacy and keep me up all night talking about the future, his father and the party. I got to see the real KG. He had dreams and he wanted to make it far in life. I kept on giving him pointers on what he should do and I told him that if he needed any help he could consult with me or Sihle because I wasn’t sure how things really were between him and Gavin.

KG then confessed to me that he had always had feelings for me but he realized that I loved Lincoln because every time he would try to tell me how he felt, I talked about Lincoln. I just thought he was lonely. He was filling some void that made him feel as if he loved me when he really didn’t. He told me that it had been that way since high school but the problem was that I never saw him as a potential boyfriend, I only saw him as a friend. I really wanted to think that I was imagining things and that he wasn’t aware of what he was saying but he kept on talking about that the whole time. “Why do you think I kept on trying to break you two up? I wanted you for myself and seeing you with him just made me realize that he was more of a man than I was because he stepped up and stayed with you through thick and thin” KG added. As the conversation was deepening, Lerato called KG to tell him to wish Thobile a Happy Birthday on her behalf. That little devil! We didn’t even know that it was her birthday and she said nothing about it. I tried to get out of bed before KG pulled me back and tried to kiss me. I actually kissed him back and as intense as it was becoming, I kept stopping him from doing more than he was supposed to. “I love you Earl” he accidentally said. When he realized he had said that, he clenched his teeth and closed his eyes. I kissed him on the forehead and jumped out of bed.

I ran to Thobile and Morithi’s room to give Thobile a rude awakening. When people heard me singing to her, they too came running to the room as confused as they were and also started singing. We dragged her out of bed and put her in a tub of ice cold water. “You guys will give my babies the flu” she complained. We had clearly forgotten about her pregnancy, but it was just one random cold bath, I’m sure it couldn’t have hurt her.  Morithi was out so we knew that he was getting her something. Later on that day, KG and I went to the shops to get her a present. Well that was the intention until I saw all those baby stuff, I couldn’t stop buying. KG kept being affectionate, pulling me, biting my ear amongst other things and I was just so uncomfortable because I didn’t know how to react. It felt good though. I told KG that I wasn’t ready to date again and besides even if I was, I wouldn’t want a guy like him. I wanted someone who would be able to be with me holistically, and that means no barriers, parents should know, he should be open and PROUD, the works. I thought that would turn him away. “Well we can let my mother know as soon as everything dies down.” KG said. I just laughed and continued buying things. I didn’t think he was serious.

KG was convinced that he was my soul mate. They say at the age of 21 you have already met your soul mate; I was 23 and still waiting. KG really wanted us to try something out. I really would have loved to but that meant a lot of things would change, besides I wasn’t in the mood to start again but he kept on insisting that he would make it work. He said he wanted to tell everyone about it and I told him not to rush into things. It seemed like the more I stopped him, the more eager he was to actually make things happen between us. What had I gotten myself into?

NB: Busted continues on the 15th of December 2014.

Busted! - Chapter 11.4: Face To Face

A few hours later, I found myself sitting in my bedroom just to avoid everyone. I heard the doorbell ring downstairs and I ignored it because I knew whoever was downstairs would handle it. I heard that it was Gavin and he was asking where I was. I heard footsteps approaching my bedroom and I sat up straight waiting to hear what he had to say. He came into my bedroom together with Sihle and he locked the door. “You two are going to solve your issues, I don’t care how long it takes because I actually have my vodka with me!” Gavin said as he made himself comfortable. I had nothing to say to either of them. I just sat there waiting for Sihle to say something whilst Gavin mixed a drink for himself. It was very awkward; I kept looking around my room and discovered corners I had never seen all my life. Sihle stood by the door with his phone in his hand busy texting whoever it was that he was texting. Gavin kept on looking at us both waiting for one of us to say something. Sihle was stubborn, but I was worse! I sighed and then looked at the ceiling. Sihle kept tapping his feet waiting for Gavin to open the door so he could leave but that wasn’t going to happen. “Okay… fine! I’m sorry Earl.” Sihle said. “Finally someone breaks the ice, my drink was becoming warm” Gavin said as he flicked his imaginary weave. I just looked at Sihle and said nothing. “I knew this was a bad idea Gavin, let’s go!” he said. “Earl? Have you misplaced your tongue? I can give you mine if you like” Gavin said and I just broke into laughter. Sihle tried hard to contain his laughter but he too started laughing and before you knew it, we were all laughing. We talked things over and we were fine once again. When we were cool, Sihle and I attacked Gavin for his bottle so that we could drink. “I needed this!” I said. Things between the three of us were fine again but I learnt my lesson and I was going to walk away with it quietly.

Sihle then told me to go talk to Kelebogile about this whole Lincoln saga because she felt threatened by me. I contemplated doing that until we all went downstairs to join everyone that was there. I went to Kelebogile and asked her to follow me outside where I would talk to her about Lincoln. She came and we talked about the kiss. Kelebogile wasn’t fazed by the kiss, what really shook her up was the stuff that KG said. “Earl… please! Just give me Lincoln, you’re good looking, you’re talented, you have a good thing going, you can get any man you want. Just don’t take Lincoln from me…please!” Kelebogile begged. I just sighed and promised her that I would keep my distance just to make her happy.

The time for Lerato to part ways with us had come. Her man came to fetch her and she was excited to leave. We all walked her to the car and said our goodbyes. She promised that she would see us at The Big Guy’s funeral and that we should try and not fight for at LEAST a week. As soon as she left, we could feel the void. Lerato had always been one of the loudest people in the house and it was just silent. Texts from people coming to the party kept flocking in and I told KG that we should cancel the party. “NO! You can’t do that, my dad knew I loved to party, I’m pretty sure he won’t have a problem with this. Besides, we’re celebrating his life!” said KG. We all looked at each other and what I could pick up is that we were actually judging KG but he was right, his dad just wanted us to be happy and that’s what we were going to do. The more things change, the more they stay the same.

Malcolm and Sihle decided to cook for everyone that day. The mood was a bit better than it was earlier on except that Malcolm nearly died. Apparently after realizing that he was burning something, he started a fire. I have no idea how the fire started but all I know is that he himself had to be extinguished even though all he left with was a little boil on his hand. Had it not been for Sihle and the fire extinguisher, we would have lost Malcolm. We obviously had to get take-outs and we sat at the table laughing at how stupid Malcolm was in the kitchen. Eventually we all headed to our respective rooms and slept.

Busted! - Chapter 11.3: Be Strong

In the car, KG told me that he had confronted his friends about what they said and I guess that is why they kept on apologizing to me. I didn’t see why he bothered because it was quite evident that I was the slut in that whole situation. It was also quite evident that everybody else thought the same about me. It was sad but I just kept telling myself that it will be okay.

We arrived at KG’s house and the mood there was different from the one I had left at the commune. It was very peaceful and somber. As soon as we entered the house, KG ran to his mother to give her a hug and they sat there together crying. It was really sad seeing them that way that I also started to cry. His mother came to me and hugged me too. She was a strong woman and she kept on saying God knew what He was doing. She knew that I loved The Big Guy almost more than the other boys. There were other people there as well; friends, family and colleagues and when we began to calm down, KG’s mother gave him a box that his father had left him. KG opened the box and inside he found a lot of money and a letter that read:

“My only son,
This is a token of my appreciation for the love and respect you have shown me through the years. Do with it whatever you can. Take care of your mother for me and keep coming to see her because it will be very lonely without me this side. Tell Nigel that he mustn’t give up on his dreams. Tell Lincoln to take care of Kelebogile. Tell Earl I said that the only way he will be rich is if he’s self employed because he’s hot-headed. Lastly, he and Malcolm should both cut their hair. I know that these boys will take good care of you because I know real friends when I see them.
Love always,
You know who.”

KG and I laughed at some of the things his father had said about us. KG shook his head and properly folded his letter and put it back in the box. It was a very sweet gesture from his father and it made me love him even more. People kept flocking in to show their respect. Whilst KG was being a man making sure things ran smoothly. I sat on the mattress with his mother, only because she asked me to. People that didn’t know KG thought that I was KG but his mother would always introduce me as her other son. After some time KG and I left to head back to the commune.

When we arrived, we found a bunch of bags stacked at the door step. Lincoln, Nigel, Kelebogile, Lerato and Sihle were moving out. I kicked Lincoln and Nigel out, Kelebogile is obviously following Lincoln, and Lerato had already announced her move but Sihle? Well I wasn’t going to fight that.

As I entered the house, the TV was turned off because we were about to have another house meeting. Lincoln and Nigel apologized for their actions in front of everyone and I actually felt nothing, I was so numb to what they had to say. Sihle then told me that he was moving out because I had stinking attitude and I believed that the world revolved around me. “You insist on calling the shots all the fu*&ing time, I can’t take it anymore! You can stay here in your MOTHER’s house because that’s how much of an achiever you really are!” said Sihle. I was really hurt by that statement. I didn’t even want to fight with him; I just looked at him and smiled whilst shaking my head. Lincoln asked that I forgive them and let them stay. “Sure, just remember that from now on, you’re on your own!” I said. Gavin was also there but only because he loves drama and he wanted to see what was going to happen. “Gavin, take whatever it is that you might have left here, we’re leaving. You can either come with me or stay here and be treated like a slave” Sihle said to Gavin. I could feel the tension rising. Sihle was literally telling Gavin to choose between him and me. And in case you’re wondering, Gavin chose Sihle. As soon as they left, I went up to my bedroom and broke down one last time, because I told myself that after all that is done, I wouldn’t cry for shit! To think that all of this happened because of a stupid game…

Busted! - Chapter 11.2: Rearrangement (continued)

I went upstairs to wake KG up and tell him what his friends thought about him being in my bed the previous night. He was a little disappointed by their actions but he wasn’t in the mood to react and that’s obviously because of the way he was feeling at the time about his father. I told him to wake up and take a shower so that we could be able to leave and go to his parents’ house. I went back downstairs to make sure that I was heard. Lincoln and Nigel probably thought I was joking but I was tired of their shit, I wanted them out! On my way downstairs I bumped into Kelebogile who begged me not to kick them out. “So now you feel that you’re ready to talk to me, in fact, follow them!” I replied. I was so angry that I actually found myself shaking and seeing their faces just made me feel like picking up something and throwing it at them. I felt so disrespected and belittled.

I drove out immediately to go to the service station. I don’t even know what it was that I went there for but I literally just wanted to see myself out of that house before I did anything that I would regret later on. I couldn’t even think straight. I found myself driving around the area, I had no idea where I was going but I knew that the last place I wanted to see myself was at that house. After a few minutes of pointless driving, I decided to turn back and fetch KG so that we could go to Soweto. Nigel stood in the drive way expecting me to stop my car so that he could talk to me but when he saw that I wasn’t in the mood for his games he quickly jumped out of the way, I was actually going to bump his stupid a#$! I got out of my car and went inside the house; he followed me and started apologizing. I told him how I didn’t want to hear anything that he had to say and that he should just leave before I did something stupid. After the fight with KG, nobody wanted to challenge me because they saw that I can get really mad if I want to. There was so much happening in the house. People were just going up and down and I was just not having it.

As I went up the stairs, Lincoln pulled me. I grabbed him by his shirt and I told him never to pull me like that again. He was shocked by the amount of power I had when I was angry. He then apologized again and I told him to get out of my house! I went into my bedroom and locked the door before I broke down by myself. I realized that what I was feeling wasn’t anger, I was actually hurt. I could handle people talking badly about me but not in that nature. I was in a lot of pain. I took a few deep breathes just to calm myself down.

A few minutes later, KG knocked on my door to let me know that he was ready to leave. I took everything that I needed and went downstairs. Lincoln and Nigel were still there, this time they were trying to get Sihle to talk to me since we were close but he knew that too would be impossible because he was “mad” at me for the most stupid thing in the history of our friendship. “Earl” Sihle called. “What?” I angrily asked. “Can we talk about this?” he requested. “No, why don’t we play Spin The Bottle instead?” I said as I went to my car. I told him to help his friends leave my house because I didn’t want to see them when I returned. KG came and we drove off to his place.

Busted! - Chapter 11.1: Rearrangement

The next day, which was a Thursday I woke up feeling tired because I had spent half the night taking care of KG. It was a holiday though and it meant that I didn’t have to go to work and that’s the only thing that made things better. KG kept waking up in the middle of the night crying and every time that happened, I had to be a good friend and comfort him. He asked that I accompany him home where his parents lived. The Big Guy was a very cool guy and I imagined that there would be a lot of people at his funeral because of the good heart that he had.

I woke up and slowly removed KG’s arm off of my waist. His mouth was wide open and he was drooling. I just pressed his lips together and went to take a bath. He needed all the sleep he could get. As I was in the bath tub, I fell asleep and when I opened my eyes I found myself in a pool of blood. I was frightened by the scene and I jumped out of the bath tub only to find that I was hallucinating. I don’t know what that was about but it really freaked me out.

I wanted to go back to bed and sleep that day but I couldn’t because KG had taken over my bed. He slept like an acrobat! I just had to suck it up and find something to do that morning.

I went downstairs to join everyone else and I found Sihle and Kelebogile in the lounge having what seemed to be a very deep conversation. At the table I found Thobile and Zama also gossiping, they stopped talking when I walked in and gave me weird looks. In the kitchen I found Nigel and Lincoln. I greeted them and boiled the kettle to make myself some coffee. They didn’t reply in fact I found them looking at me like I had killed their parents. I was confused as to why they would give me that kind of attitude that early in the morning and I spent a few seconds trying to figure out what it was that they were mad about before asking them. “KG’s father passes away and you see that as an opportunity to jump into bed with him!” said Lincoln. I swear all hell broke loose when he said that. I didn’t believe that they actually thought that I was moving in on KG.

“Excuse me?” I said in reply to Lincoln. “You are disgusting man, that was really low of you” said Nigel. I never really pulled rank on anyone that lived in the house and they basically lived there almost for free. “Get the fuck out of my mother’s house! Both of you!” I said as I left the kitchen. I didn’t even wait to hear what they would say; all I knew is that I was tired of people reminding me how disgusting I was when I literally sacrificed my life to make sure that their needs are met. I also hated how it’s always the gay guy who felt the wrath when KG is the one that actually came to my room. I didn’t even sleep with KG but the fact that they thought that of me confirmed every stereotype there is about gay people. People look at us and automatically think we are whores or something of that nature. I really did not care what they had to say about KG being in my room; all I knew is that I wanted them out of my house, for good!

Busted! - Chapter 10.5: Face It!

Normally the couples sit together at the dining table but that night all the couples were scattered. It was quite evident that there were more couples affected by the game than it seemed. I sat in between Thobile and Zama. Thobile gave me a pat on the back because she could see that I was down. I just smiled at her. She was pregnant and at war with Morithi, something I felt should have not been happening at all. I greeted everyone and I realized that Kelebogile and Sihle both gave me evil looks and barely replied. I wasn’t fazed though; I just made myself comfortable and prepared to eat. It was still too quiet at the table that I could actually hear myself swallow.

KG then received a call and excused himself. Lerato was still in love with KG, as much as they had just broken up, she couldn’t help but wait for him to come back before she continued eating. A few minutes later KG slowly walked back to the table with his hands on his head and he broke down in front of everyone.

Lerato jumped out of her chair and ran to hug him. We were all concerned so we all just stopped eating and gathered up around him to find out what was going on. As much as we were all angry at him, him breaking down just led us all to forgetting what he had done or said for that matter. “KG, are you okay?” I asked. He couldn’t even speak. He was in a lot of pain and we couldn’t understand if he was reacting to what had happened earlier or if he had just heard some bad news. He kept on whispering “I deserve this”. It was at that point that we knew that something bad had happened. I rushed to the kitchen to mix up some sugar water for him so that he could calm down and be able to talk to us. Everyone gathered up around him feeling sorry for him even though at the time we had no idea what had happened.

He drank the sugar water and started to breath properly. He then cleared his throat and looked at the boys and shook his head whilst facing down. We all looked at each other trying to figure out exactly what was going on. After some time he gathered enough strength to get up and told us the devastating news that shook him up in that manner. “It’s my father… he was killed a few hours ago!” he said. Everyone gasped for air. Lerato, who knew KG’s father as much as Malcolm, Morithi, Lincoln, Nigel and I did, collapsed and suffered a panic attack. We were all so saddened by the news and seeing Lerato struggling in that manner was painful for most of us that we too started to cry. Even Sihle and the other girls who didn’t know KG’s father were shaken by the news. It was the saddest moment I’d ever experienced in the house. Everyone was giving each other hugs trying to comfort each other. Gavin upon hearing the news came rushing to the house too. Gavin had a good heart, he didn’t even like KG as much but he was there to support him in those testing times.

We called KG’s father The Big Guy. He wasn’t just his father, he was our father too, especially me because I grew up without a father. I had lost a very significant part of my life. He knew that I was KG’s gay friend and he always treated me extra special from all the boys because he felt I was too soft. I couldn’t believe he was gone… what hurt even more is the fact that since I had returned to Johannesburg, I had not even made any plans to go and see him. I guess there’s a lesson to be learnt here. We’re so quick to say we will love people as if we are dying, when the notion should really be that we’ll love them like THEY are dying. If I were to ask you what you would do differently if I brought a loved one back to life, what would you say? Love them, spend more time with them, get to know them better etc. Well, I suggest you start doing those things whilst you still have whoever it is that you’re left with, because even when they die, you will be happy with yourself for making them feel the way that they did in their living years.

In the middle of the night, KG came up to my room because he couldn’t fall asleep. I got up so that I could keep him company until he asked to sleep in my room. Under normal circumstances I would have told him he was crazy and that he should get out of my room but this was different and I didn’t know what it was that he felt that made him believe that being in my bed would make things better. We talked about his father and the things that he used to do until KG fell asleep. He kept waking up every 30 minutes until I decided to give him the sleeping tablets I had gotten whilst I was in hospital. They knocked him out…  

Busted! - Chapter 10.4: Love Is Wicked

After the meeting, everyone headed back to their rooms to recover. Lincoln on the other hand had a lot of explaining to do to Kelebogile and it wasn’t going to be easy for him. KG had managed to mess up everyone's day once again. Nobody wanted to cook that day so I ordered take-outs for everyone. Ideally I would have just gone out to eat by myself and stuff myself but I wasn’t raised that way.

I couldn’t believe that Sihle was actually jealous over me and Malcolm kissing at a game that he himself suggested. If you’re going to suggest a game such as Spin The Bottle, you have to be able to handle the repercussions of it as well. I was starting to feel all different types of things. I felt hungry, angry, disappointed and depressed all at the same time. It’s funny how one night of fun can mess up one’s life.

I went downstairs and for the first time in a long time, there was no one. It looked so clean. The chairs at the table were properly tucked in. The couches looked so lonely and the TV was off. It was so quiet. I felt so out of place because I have never known the Gigolo’s castle to be like that. I also felt empty inside and I just needed to talk to someone, anyone who would listen but everyone was keeping to themselves. Kelebogile probably wanted nothing to do with me after that night and I felt really bad about the way she got to find out about Lincoln and I. Gavin didn’t return to the house that day, he went back to his place and it’s probably because he also felt that things wouldn’t be the same again. From that day onwards, I started to appreciate everyone because I got to feel what it would be like to be without them.  A few moments later, the delivery man came with our order.

I went to the gate to collect it and wished him a good night. I was walking back into the house when KG came out and offered to help me with the packages. We were the only two people downstairs. I fetched the plates and he came with the glasses. We hadn’t said a word to each other but we were helping each other set out the table. He would repeatedly pause and look at me and I’d carry on setting up the table pretending as if he wasn’t there. “How was work?” he asked. I looked at him and carried on with what I was doing. He took a deep breath and carried on helping me with the table. “So is this how it’s going to be? You’re just going to keep ignoring me like this?” he asked. Again I didn’t respond. I just carried on with whatever I was doing. He then walked straight up to me and lifted my chin with his finger. “Look, I said I was sorry. What more do you want from me?” he added. He then looked at me and he could see just how disappointed I was with him. I trusted KG and I really didn’t expect that he would one day turn around and do what he did. I could have said something but I was too disappointed to even utter a single word to him because I felt as though he didn’t deserve that from me or anyone else for that matter.

I then went upstairs to tell everyone that dinner was ready. After having done that, I headed to my room to check my phone. Messages from people who knew about the party kept coming in and amongst them was a message from Menzi. He was telling me that they came to an agreement with regards to him not marrying Zodwa and that he was leaving town. I was under the impression that he had already left. I tried to call him to find out where he was and he told me that I shouldn’t worry about him before he hung up. I tried calling him a number of times after that but his phone was off. I just put my phone down and went downstairs to join everyone who showed up for dinner, I didn’t want to but I knew that I had to…

Busted! - Chapter 10.3: What Went Down (continued)

Seemingly that Spin The Bottle game caused a lot of trouble in the house and people got to discover underlying issues that they were afraid to address. I felt guilty even though I didn’t understand why. I guess the fact that the whole situation was recorded on film made things even more unpleasant and I knew that I had to delete the footage because it would somehow come back to haunt us. Maybe coming out of hospital wasn’t the best thing that ever happened to me.

I went up to my room because I was curious to find out what had happened after I left for work since everything was recorded. KG continued to make a fool of himself even going as far as telling Lerato he didn’t love her in front of everyone. Lerato was in tears. She then told KG that she was tired and confessed that she was actually seeing an older man because she couldn’t handle KG’s childish nature. Everyone went to their rooms after that whole saga and KG sat downstairs feeling sorry for himself. After I left with Lincoln, Kelebogile never returned to the table. She went straight up to her room as well.

That night KG came to my room and asked to see me downstairs. He had sobered up. I told him I was coming and I slammed the door in his face. I then disconnected the camera from my TV, put it away and headed downstairs to see what was going on. Everyone was in the lounge. It seemed like KG had actually called a house meeting. Lincoln, Kelebogile and Sihle only joined us after a while. We all sat down quietly and patiently waited to hear what KG had to say.

KG stood in front of us all and started apologizing for his behavior right before spoiling it again by saying that all he wanted to do was to show everyone the truth about the things that were happening in the house. “Earl, Lincoln and Kelebogile, you guys have an amazing love triangle but it has to change” said KG. Lincoln and Kelebogile who were seated down holding hands that time let go of each other and the rest of the house became rowdy because KG was being a pig, yet again.

“I’m sorry but it’s true. Earl, you ended up in hospital because you were under immense stress and obviously Lincoln getting married to Kelebogile had a lot to do with that. Kelebogile, you are perfect for Lincoln but unfortunately he doesn’t belong to you. I had a hand in all of this because I and the boys made Lincoln feel dirty for being gay and he settled for you.” KG said. Kelebogile became emotional and I went from being angry to becoming a tad bit relieved that the truth came out. I had always wondered why Lincoln behaved in the way that he did when we dated because we started out so perfectly and things changed overnight. I told KG to stop talking because his apology was only making things worse than they already were. “No let him finish” Lincoln insisted.

He carried on talking about Lincoln and I and then he apologized to Lerato for his behavior. Straight after that he mentioned moving out of the house but Lerato interrupted him and told him that he should stay because she was moving out of the house. Lerato then told everyone about her new man and told us the reason for her moving on. So there it was, Lerato and KG were no more and she was moving out. We all loved Lerato; Lincoln stood up and gave Lerato an emotional hug that turned into a group hug. We knew that we were about to lose one of the best things that had ever happened to the Gigolo’s Castle.

Busted! - Chapter 10.2: What Went Down?

Immediately after work I quickly fetched Lincoln. I wanted to get home as soon as I could that day. Nobody had to know that the camera was still on recording them candidly. We drove to the house and I think that was the fastest I had ever gotten home from work. I went straight to the fridge where I had put it and I actually found that it was low. I took it up to my room to put it on the charger and then I went downstairs.

The mood in the house was really tense. Everyone was in their rooms except Nigel and Zama who sat downstairs watching TV. I still couldn’t believe that this major damage was caused by KG. Nobody wanted anything to do with him, myself included. I greeted Nigel and Zama downstairs and headed straight to the kitchen to make myself something to eat.

When I was done with that I went outside to call Thebe just to find out how he was holding up. He sounded like he was doing okay. It really does get better with time. I sat outside alone watching the trees and listening to the songs of the birds. Menzi then called me moments later. He didn’t want to tell me where he was but he just wanted me to know that he was fine and that I shouldn’t worry about him.

I went back into the house and I heard noises coming from Malcolm and Sihle’s room. I went up to their room to check what was going on. I opened the door and they were so much at it that they didn’t even hear or see me standing at the door. They were also fighting about a “kiss”. “GUYS!” I shouted. They didn’t hear me. They went on and on until my name was mentioned but it was unclear as to what it was that I did. It seemed like Malcolm was angry at the fact that Sihle and KG were too passionate when they kissed the previous night. “Not this again” I thought to myself. “GUYS” I screamed and this time I managed to capture their attention. They both looked at me. Sihle then walked towards the door and said “I’m done with him!” and then he walked out.

“Earl, please talk to him. I was really just joking” Malcolm said. “What happened though?” I asked. “Well, Sihle thinks that I may have some feelings for you because of last night’s kiss!” Malcolm said. I really just wanted to laugh, this whole situation was becoming more and more childish as we went. Why would Sihle even think of such a thing? “I mean he and KG also kissed and I had absolutely no problem with that, but with you, it’s a big deal!” Malcolm added. I didn’t even know whether I should laugh or cry. I honestly couldn’t believe that Sihle would be angry over such a childish thing…

Busted! - Chapter 10.1: Table Wars

I got dressed and went downstairs and for the first time in the history of the Gigolo’s Castle, I found everyone at the table having breakfast. Normally Sihle, Malcolm, Lincoln, KG and I would be the only ones at the table for breakfast but that day it was everyone. I sat down and made myself comfortable. I found myself sitting next to KG and I actually realized that I would always sit next to KG at the dinner table.

“KG, could you kindly move your chair a bit.” I asked. I guess we were really squashed because everyone was at the table, including Gavin who visits frequently. The mood was positive and everyone seemed happy and energized that morning. We were all looking forward to a great day either at work or on campus until KG decided to open his mouth. “Did you guys see how long Earl and Lincoln kissed last night?” he asked the table. There was an awkward silence and some throats were cleared. My first reaction was to look at Kelebogile to see if she was okay. I was fuming and I hadn’t even touched my breakfast. I looked at KG and told him to shut up. Unfortunately for me, the mood had already started to deteriorate. “But why Earl, I mean it was long and passionate, there’s obviously more to it!” KG added. At this point, I didn’t even know where to look. He just ruined a beautiful morning for everyone by being unnecessary. Everyone at the table was silent and that’s where I realized that most of the boys in the house were afraid of KG. “Why do you insist on behaving like a pig though?” I asked him. “I didn’t think you noticed” he replied with a smug face. Thobile intervened and called KG to order. I was so angry.

“KG, it was just a game man” said Lincoln in his defense. “Babe, don’t even entertain him, he’s just being a pig like Earl said” Kelebogile added. “Oh poor Kelebogile, I’m getting you a blonde weave, you fail to see a lot of things including the fact that your boyfriend doesn’t really love you” KG laughed as he said that in response to Kelebogile. Everyone at the table stopped eating and gave KG a good stare because we all couldn’t believe how foolish he was behaving that morning. “Do you?” he asked Lincoln. Lincoln just looked at KG and there was another awkward silence. I felt like that was the perfect moment for me to leave the house. “Of course I love her! What the hell is wrong with you dude?” asked Lincoln. “Guys, I have to go!” I said as I prepared to leave the table. “Oh no… you’re not going anywhere! Lincoln how do you feel about Earl? You still love him?” KG asked Lincoln. I immediately turned around and slapped KG across the face! He got up and we wrestled whilst everyone else tried to stop the fight. Tempers were flaring! I wanted to kill him; Gavin pulled me away and kept on reminding me that he wasn’t worth it. Morithi and Lincoln were holding KG down and Morithi realized that KG was actually drunk. “It’s 7h15 in the morning and he’s already drunk! You’re such a sad case in life.” said Gavin. KG managed to escape Morithi and Lincoln’s grip and ran towards Gavin and me. I grabbed a fork on the table, strangled KG to the wall and told him I’d kill him if he ever tried to touch Gavin. “Don’t mess with me KG” I angrily said and let him go. He collapsed and struggled to catch his breath.

I quickly went up to my room to get a clean shirt for work. I then rushed downstairs, grabbed my suitcase and headed for the door. I had to get out of that house before I did anything that I would later on regret. Lincoln got into the car and just as we were about to leave, Kelebogile came running to give him his lunch. She then kissed him and apologized to him for KG’s behavior. I felt really bad when she did that and I believe that on that day, Lincoln realized just how much Kelebogile loved him. We drove out and on the way I probed him about Kelebogile.

He finally agreed to let his idea of him and I go. I could see that it was hard for him but he had to do it because Kelebogile loved him unconditionally. I guess that’s why heterosexual relationships last longer than homosexual relationships, it’s because you always find a woman that will fight with everything she has to make sure that her man stays where she wants him to. On the way to the office, I realized that I left the camera on top of the fridge and I had not turned it off!

Busted! - Chapter 9.5: Wacky Wednesday!

The next day I woke up with a hangover of note and I had to report to the office to see how we were holding up. People had started confirming their attendance for the house party and my phone was just bombarded with messages since I sent the invites. Almost everyone was coming even Tebogo and Khotso whom we last saw in High School. Menzi’s phone was still off and he was still nowhere to be found. That morning, Lincoln had come to wake me up but I was already awake. He stood there and I looked at him waiting for him to leave the room because he could see that I was awake.

“So that kiss last night? Did it mean anything to you?” he asked. I asked that we not talk about it and he insisted. I reminded him that he was someone’s fiancé and that he shouldn’t go around being fooled by kisses. “You keep bringing that up!” he said angrily. “Yes because this person lives under the same roof as us!” I retaliated. He then jumped into my bed and playfully started kissing me all over. I laughed because he was tickling me in the process. “Lincoln! No! Stop! Your girlfriend might find you here.” I said flirtatiously. He stopped for a while and looked at me; mind you he was still on top of me. “You know what? I don’t care.” he said as he continued.

I stood up and pushed him away. “Get up, take a bath and get ready for work or else I’ll fire you!” I jokingly said as I ran into the bathroom and locked myself inside. He knocked on the bathroom door and I ignored him until he left. As fun as it was, I still couldn’t see myself being the reason behind someone’s heart breaking. I couldn’t!

 

Busted! - Chapter 9.4: Plate Music

There we were at the table, all at peace with each other but Lincoln was not eating. He kept on playing with his food and I couldn’t help but notice. I looked at Kelebogile and signaled to her that she should say something. “Babe, why aren’t you eating?” she asked Lincoln. He simply said he wasn’t hungry. Kelebogile looked at me and we both shrugged.

Thobile decided to change the mood at the table by asking me about my hospital stay. “It was quiet and lonely, but at least there were people who came to check up on me. I guess that’s what made it better.” I said. I looked at Lincoln and he just smiled and looked away. “I must say, it really sucked not having you around.” Kelebogile confessed and everyone seemed to agree with her. “I have never resisted food in my life but that night I didn’t touch food at all.” Morithi added. “Oh please babe, we were up at 3am rummaging through the fridge trying to find something to eat.” Thobile said. We all laughed, I never believed Morithi anyway. He eats for all of us. It felt good to be home in the presence of the people that kept me sane… and insane! “I kept on waiting for you to shout: Malcolm the key is on table!” added Malcolm. “I only did that once though” I replied. “I know, but the point is that I missed you.” he said. Sihle got a little jealous and Gavin could see it. “I just wanted a drink! That’s all!” Gavin said to shift the focus from Malcolm.

“So where are we partying this weekend?” KG asked. I suggested that we throw a house party and have people come to our side instead of us having to go out. Everyone seemed to like the idea. I guess my attitude towards life started to change because I learnt that tomorrow was never guaranteed and trust me when I say I started living my life from there on. We brought out all our contacts, DJ’s, friends and everyone else before sending out invitations via text. It was very short notice but everyone that knew us, knew that it was self-mutilation not to attend any of the parties that we threw. When that was done we chilled in the lounge and whilst we were channel surfing looking for something to watch, we came across a show called Big Brother which is a reality show about strangers living together under one roof for 91 days. I then decided to get my camcorder and started recording my house mates. We kept taking turns with the recording. KG kept making jokes; he’s funny when he wants to be. We did things that were out of this world and that’s only because people knew they were being recorded. Lerato and Gavin gave us a strip show whilst the couples talked about each other on tape. And then out of the blue, Sihle came up with the bright idea of playing Spin The Bottle. I honestly thought it was a bad idea and asked that we not do that, but because everyone was drunk, I lost. By the end of the night I had to kiss Lincoln and Malcolm. When I kissed Lincoln, none of us wanted to stop and people ended up complaining but I don’t think anyone took into mind what was really happening. Sihle and KG also shared an intimate kiss. The funny part was when Gavin had to kiss KG, they hated each other’s guts but because they wanted to play that game they had to do it, both of them spit afterwards. Nigel and Thobile shared a kiss too, and I was the only one aware of the chemistry that was between them. Morithi kissed Zama and it was boring. Basically everyone kissed everyone and the sad part is that it was all recorded. I must admit, as much as I hated the idea of that game, I appreciated the open-mindedness of my housemates.

Busted! - Chapter 9.3: My Fault Again

Sihle and Gavin came up to my room to tell me what they failed to tell me whilst I was in hospital about Menzi. Menzi had gone missing and when he left home, he had told his mother that he was coming to my place. Whilst I was in hospital, his uncles came to the house in search of Menzi and they were unruly. They literally invaded everyone’s privacy looking for Menzi and nobody wanted to tell me what had happened because I was still in hospital. Before breaking up with Menzi, I had given him some money and I thought to myself that maybe he took the money and left the country or something of that nature. I remembered that Menzi had come to see me before I went to hospital and I paid him no mind so I started blaming myself for his disappearance. As soon as I found out what had happened, I grabbed my car keys and prepared to go look for him. “But Earl, what about your party?” Sihle asked. “Dude, this can wait, I need to find Menzi!” I replied. “Oh my Gosh, this is going to be so much fun, I feel like I’m in the CSI. Let’s go look for him!” said Gavin. We inconspicuously left the house and drove to the hotel in Sandton and he wasn’t there.

“Stop blaming yourself Earl, it’s really not your fault that he left.” Said Sihle. I felt so powerless; I didn’t know what to say. If only I had listened to him that day, none of this would have happened. We drove around the whole of Johannesburg in search of Menzi and when I realized that we were not going to find him, I gave up and drove back to the house. Sometimes being impulsive doesn't yield good returns.

I had to go back to work the following day so I went upstairs to prepare before joining everyone else downstairs. Thobile had an announcement to make, she was not just pregnant but she was pregnant with twins. The housemates were excited for her, myself included. “Morithi, you’re quite the strong one.” said KG. Nigel was a bit shaken by the announcement, at some point he pretended as if he didn’t hear what Thobile said and kept on gulping down his drink. “So have you thought about names yet?” Lincoln asked. “Dude, stop with the names, I couldn’t even think of a name for one child, now I have to think of names for two!” said Morithi in his drunken state. Thobile and I couldn’t help but laugh at him. Thobile seemed to be taking the news very well; I was just excited that there would be two little ones keeping us happy in no time. Lincoln kept bringing up the fact that he and his ex wanted to have a child together and name them Karabo. I knew that he was talking about me. I didn’t pay attention to him; the only people that knew he was talking about me were Sihle and Gavin. “Lincoln, you had your chance and you blew it! Shut up.” said Gavin. The mood changed a bit because I think that it was at that point that Kelebogile thought that Gavin was the ex Lincoln was talking about. KG realized this and tried to fix the situation by telling Kelebogile about some girl who didn’t exist and he did that to save Lincoln. Sihle, Gavin and I played along, everyone else looked confused. Lincoln excused himself and left us downstairs making a fool of ourselves.

Finally dinner was ready and we all sat down to eat. It was much different from the other days where we would be separate during dinner time because of how tense that time of the night would always be. That night though, we all sat at the table and had a lovely chat.

Busted! - Chapter 9.2: Last Day

It had been four days since I was at the hospital and my time to go home had finally come. I was fully recharged. I was healthy, I could talk, and I felt like I was on top of the world.

“Rise and shine!” said the doctor as he walked into my ward. He examined me and then gave me a cocktail of pills to take home together with a prescription. I bathed and then changed into the clothes Sihle had brought me the previous day. I waited for Sihle to come and fetch me and he arrived with Gavin. “You are buying me a bottle of vodka, since you’ve been in here; I haven’t had a single drink because I didn’t want to be too drunk to come here if they had said you wanted to say your last words. In fact, you’re buying me rum…too!” Gavin said. He really loved his alcohol. We left the hospital and drove to the bottle store where I would buy Gavin his gifts and then we drove home. My mother called to tell me that I should head to my grandmother’s place because the Gigolo’s Castle wasn’t good for me. Sihle was eavesdropping and then he grabbed the phone and told my mother that everything was under control. Sihle was the favourite, Gavin’s parents loved him and so did my mother. Gavin and I were seen as the rebels and Sihle was the sweet one who kept us grounded… little did they know.

We arrived at the Gigolo’s Castle at about twelve in the afternoon. What I thought initially was that everyone was at work or at school because the house looked so empty from outside. Sihle opened the door and I followed in after him. It seemed to me like nobody was home. I checked in the lounge and as I walked to the kitchen I heard a few whispers. “Surprise!” they all said as I entered the kitchen. It was so overwhelming. I received a hug from everyone, including Thobile. “Just because we know stuff about each other doesn’t mean that I hate you.” she said. I smiled. KG walked towards me and I stood there looking at him because I was so grateful for what he did for me, had it not been for his concern, I probably would have died that night. “Thank you.” I said. “It’s not a problem; I’ll come upstairs to give you your welcome back gift.” KG said, and just like that he ruined the mood. “It’s okay; I’ll collect that gift here, in front of everyone.” I retaliated. “I don’t think I’m that brave!” he said as he laughed. I laughed and walked away from him just so that the conversation wouldn’t stretch longer than it was meant to. I went to my room so that I could find something else to wear since I didn’t like the clothes Sihle had brought me. Lincoln followed me with a key in his hand. I tried opening my door and it was locked. “Allow me…” he said and as I entered my room, I was greeted by a beautiful sight. Lincoln had bought me bouquets of flowers and decorated my room, on my bed he left a note, it read: “For the one I’ll always love... Lincoln”. It was really such a beautiful gesture. Sihle and Gavin walked in and they too were blown away by the beauty that was my room that day. “Wow!” they both said. Lincoln left the room and I immediately went to go lock the door because I didn’t want anyone else to see what was happening in my room especially Kelebogile. “Do you think you’re healthy enough to explain this to us?” asked Sihle. I really had no words for them, I just laughed. “Uhm… who’s responsible for this?” asked Gavin. Sihle and I looked at each other and rolled our eyes. “Let’s go join everyone else downstairs!” I said.

We were having a party on a Monday. I walked around the house making small talk with everyone trying to find out if there was anything I missed whilst I was away. When I went to the kitchen I found KG by himself on his phone and then I just went out to go sit at my favourite spot in the garden. After a few minutes Lincoln came to join me. “I knew I’d find you here!” he said. He asked me how I was feeling and I told him that I was much better than I thought I would be. He then asked me if I had thought about what he had said when I was in hospital and I begged him not to tell Kelebogile or anyone else about him and I. “As much as I want to be with you, you need to do things the right way. Kelebogile is human, and she has a heart, don’t be that guy!” I said. He shook his head and left me where I was sitting. He was obviously angry and he had reason to be.

I went back to the house and everyone was just mingling and having a good time. Lincoln was really making things hard for me and himself. I went up to my bedroom and sat on my bed because I just needed a few minutes to be alone before going downstairs and joining everyone else. KG then came in to my room and locked the door behind him. I looked at him and smiled before shaking my head. He sat next to me and did that thing with his eyes again. I looked away. He pulled me close and tried to kiss me. I pulled back and calmly told him to leave me alone. He had this smirk on his face and then he stood up, kissed me on the forehead. “You make it hard for me to behave.” he said as he walked out. I stayed behind digesting everything as it was happening and I wasn’t angry, in fact I found it funny even though I was calm about it.

Busted! - Chapter 9.1: Dry Your Eyes

The next morning my mother flew in to see me at the hospital. She sat besides me and held my hand whilst waiting for me to wake up. When I opened my eyes, the first few seconds were very blurry and the only thing I could do was hear what my mother had to say. I actually thought that I had gone blind but after a few minutes my sight was restored. I still couldn’t talk for some reason but this time I was calm about it because I felt safe at the hospital. My mother started blaming herself for letting me move back to Johannesburg and also highlighted how weak I actually was. Seeing as I wasn’t responding to anything she was saying, she called the nurse to find out what was happening. The nurse told her that I needed time and that she should be patient. She left the hospital and promised to see me the following day.

A few minutes later the nurse brought me something to eat. I was so hungry that I showed that food no mercy whatsoever. At least after eating I was able to talk even though I was the only one that could hear myself because my voice was low. The guys at the house came to see me, and because they were such a large group, they took turns coming into the ward. They all did their rounds until the only people I was left with to see was Gavin and Sihle. Sihle wanted to tell me something about Menzi but Gavin kept on stopping him. I thought that whatever it was, it would have been hard for me to handle because of where I was at the time. After some time they too left and I thought that was the end of it until Lincoln came in to the ward, this time by himself. He held my hand and started talking.

“Hey babe. You gave us all a fright last night; I don’t think I’d be lying if I said no one could even eat last night until the early hours of the morning. When we left this place last night, I stood by the door and watched you lying here. I realized then that I cannot go on living like this. I miss you and I have missed you every single day after you left for Cape Town and I promise you that once you get out of here, I’m letting everyone know that it’s you I want to be with. I deserve a second chance Earl. Let me prove to you that I can be the man you’ve always wanted me to be. I nearly lost you and I’m not going to let that happen again. Don’t cry, I love you.” he said.

The nurse came in and told Lincoln to leave because I needed to rest. Lincoln kissed me on my forehead and left. The nurse dripped me and I passed out…

Busted! - Chapter 8.5: First Time (Continued)

"Menzi, what are you doing here?" I asked. I was happy to see him but at the same time I was surprised that he had actually come to see me. He kept on saying "I can't" and I didn't understand what he was on about. "I'm not marrying Zodwa, my mom came back from the conference and my uncles are so adamant on us paying lobola for Zodwa!" he said. I didn't understand what Menzi expected me to do about the situation because it sounded to me like it was a done deal. "What do you want me to do Menzi?" I asked. "Go to my house and tell my uncles we're together!" he said. He was mad. He was literally going insane. I really wanted to help him get out of the situation but the least I did, the better the situation would be. Menzi wanted me to take the fall for him and I couldn't agree to that. It was a very cowardly move so I refused.

He then stormed out of my room. The way I was so tired, I didn't even try to follow him. I immediately went back to sleep, this time locking my door because I didn't want any more disturbances. Six hours later, at around 9pm, I heard a number of people knocking on my door and calling out my name. I tried to get up but I was so dizzy. I couldn't even lift my head off of the pillow. I tried to move my legs and it hit me at that point that I was suffering some form of temporary paralysis even though at that time I didn't know whether it was temporary or permanent. I opened my eyes and when I tried to speak, nothing would happen, I'd hear myself talking but nothing was actually happening. I then started to cry because I was panicking. I calmed myself down and tried again for the 50th time to get out of my bed but I couldn't. Eventually the guys in the house managed to break my door down. KG was the first to rush in followed by Lincoln and then everyone else.

"Earl wake up!" KG said. "Earl what's going on?" Lincoln asked frantically. I could see them, my eyes were wide open but I couldn't move nor say anything to them, the only signal I could give to show them I was in some form of trouble was to cry. Lincoln then picked me up and together with KG, Sihle and Morithi; they rushed me to the hospital.

KG drove with Lincoln in the front. I sat at the back with Sihle and Morithi. Sihle was trying his best to keep me warm because I had started shaking. Morithi on the other hand was crying. "Please don't die Earl" he cried. I really wanted to laugh. Lincoln kept turning back to brush my head, apparently because that is a calming technique and KG was trying hard not to notice what Lincoln was doing.

When we got to the hospital, the doctor performed some checks on me and realized that my blood pressure had gone up the roof. My diagnosis: depression. The doctor had me sedated and the guys left to go back to the commune. I remember waking up in the middle of the night and realizing I was in hospital, I was thirsty and all I wanted was a glass of water but I couldn't talk and I couldn't even maneuver my body to press the call button. I peacefully passed out again…

Busted! - Chapter 8.4: First Time

The next morning I woke up not wanting anything to do with anyone. I actually took it upon myself that day to stay in bed all day and just not interact with anyone as that would just find a way to mess with my day. The doctor had told me to stay at home and REST and that's exactly what I was doing. I didn't have an appetite for food, money or even people.

I felt really bad about my being unable to tell Sihle about the Malcolm situation especially because he was the one who told me about Lincoln and Kelebogile back then. Had it not been for Sihle I would probably still be unhappy with Lincoln whilst he divided himself between Kelebogile and I. At least back then I didn't even know who Kelebogile was but when that changed, I couldn't help but feel bad because I knew what kind of person she was and I knew that she didn't deserve any of the pain Lincoln was causing her.

That day Menzi called to tell me that his mother wanted to see me, but because of the state I woke up in, I told him I'd come some other time. Kelebogile then came up to check up on me. She was a very sweet girl who cared about everyone in the house. When I looked at her, I found the fact that Lincoln was on my tail totally unfathomable but I kept it to myself and found myself engaging in a conversation with Kelebogile about anything BUT Lincoln. When she left, I called my mother and hoped that she would be able to lift up my spirits; all she could tell me was that I had to leave Joburg and return to Cape Town.

She also told me that she got engaged a few days earlier and that I should prepare myself for her wedding too. It seemed like everyone in my life was getting married and it was really starting to get to me. I found myself hopping from one relationship to the next in hopes of finding that ONE guy that I'd marry but that wasn't happening for me. God knows I also wanted to get married to Thebe when I was with him but because that wasn't going to happen, I felt like everyone else was just getting married, almost like God was rubbing it in my face. I got up and took a shower and then I put my pyjamas back on and went back to sleep. I was feeling so tired, I even found it hard to open my eyes.

Menzi came into my room and woke me up. I slowly got up and looked to see if it was him but I was so drowsy that I just looked the opposite direction and passed out again. "Earl!" he shouted. I jumped up and it really was him. I wasn't dreaming…

Busted! - Chapter 8.3: It's Okay!

I got into my bedroom and made myself comfortable. I turned on my TV and started eating on my bed. I really hate eating in my bedroom but I guess there was no other place where I could be by myself besides outside or in the bathroom which wasn't going to be conducive. As I was sitting there I heard a knock on my door. "Who is it?" I asked. It was Malcolm and he had come to talk to me because he didn't understand why there was so much animosity between us. I told him that I knew about him and Gabriel and asked him to explain to me what exactly was going on. He told me that he and Gabriel started dating long before Sihle came back into the picture but he couldn't break up with Gabriel because he didn't want to hurt his feelings. Malcolm was so obsessed with being the good guy and I guess he didn't realize that sometimes he hurts people more than he intends to by trying so hard to be good. I told Malcolm to do what he believes is the right thing. He then left my room.

Moments later Lincoln came up to my room to ask me if I was okay. "One moment you're setting up a table and next thing you know, you're not even eating on it" he said. I told him that I just felt like being by myself and that he shouldn't worry about me. He then started doing what he normally does when he gets some alone time with me, flirt. When he could see that I wasn't reciprocating, he told me what he always tells me when we're alone only this time he was very emotional. "I know you don't believe me but I am so in love with you, in fact I'm stuck with a girl I'll never love like I do you because society says it's the right thing to do." He said. "And I still say that the day you actually grow a backbone, we probably can have this conversation again and actually get somewhere, otherwise please stop bombarding me with this information, it actually pisses me off!" I said. He was astonished, I don't think he expected that much honesty from me, but I guess this is what I mean when I say you can save a lot of people pain if you just stopped trying to be the good guy.

We worry so much about what our family will say or what our friends will say and sometimes we have reason to, but people learn to accept things as they are. Coming out is a frightening thing to do, it just makes people feel uncomfortable and that is why it is such a gradual process but one thing that we don't realize is that it all starts with us. We know how the situation is, and because we do, we need to realize that it is no longer in control of us.

I went to my bathroom to wash my face and I started thinking about all the secrets that had started to get to me. There was Lincoln whom I believe needed me more than I could actually imagine. Malcolm was cheating on my best friend and I had no idea what a best friend was supposed to do in a situation like that especially because lovers have a way of reconnecting, leaving you looking foolish. Thobile was also up to no good and I was so close to Morithi that it actually felt like she was doing whatever she was doing to me and then there was the big elephant in the room, KG and I. I felt bad almost every day especially when I looked at Lerato and saw how sweet she was. It just haunted me, so much that I felt like the best thing to do was to minus myself from the equation… eternally.

Busted! - Chapter 8.2: Break The Ice

We arrived at the Gigolo's Castle. Lincoln took Kelebogile and they went inside the house. I stayed behind collecting stuff in my car and then I followed them behind. When I got inside the house I found Malcolm and Sihle watching TV. I didn't say a thing to Malcolm; I just gave him the "I know what you're up to" look and went upstairs. Sihle was a bit shocked at the way I behaved towards Malcolm but I believe he would have done the same if he was in my position. I slowly opened my bedroom door because I wasn't looking forward to finding a naked KG inside. Luckily for me, the coast was clear.

I sat in my room, trying my best to let go of the whole Malcolm and Gabriel situation. A part of me really wanted to let Sihle know but I didn't want to be the bearer of bad news. I called Gavin to let him know what I had heard and he was just not having it. "Where does this Gabriel live? I'll pay him a visit!" Gavin said. I knew it was a bad idea telling him because he would just take the whole situation and exaggerate it; it was in his nature to do so. Menzi's mom on the other hand was returning the following day and I had planned to go see her because I needed her to explain to me what was happening but I just decided to let it go and let things play out the way that they were intended to.

Downstairs, Morithi was preparing dinner and Thobile was helping him and because I wanted to keep busy, I decided to help. It was quite tense in the kitchen because of the way things were between me and Thobile, but Morithi didn't pick it up.

"You look down, what's up?" Morithi asked. "Nothing, I'm okay." I quickly replied. "You look good by the way" Morithi added. I just blushed and took some plates with me and left the kitchen.

I went to help Thobile set up the dinner table. "So have you thought about it?" she asked. "Thought about what? I didn't think about anything because my mind was so infested with the idea that you and Nigel actually have a secret something going on. So…if you can keep your mouth shut, I'll do the same!" I replied. She looked like she was about to have a heart attack and she dropped the plate she had in her hand. Luckily she didn't get cut. Nigel on the other hand was the first to rush to the table to check if she didn't hurt herself. I just rolled my eyes as usual and walked away from the table.

I went to sit in the lounge with everyone else. "So you did you hair Earl?" asked Malcolm. "No hey, I undid it. I mean it is quite obvious that I did!" I replied. Malcolm got a little angry. "Dude, what's wrong with you today?" he asked. "With me? I think I should be asking what's wrong with you!" I replied. "What the hell are you on about Earl?" asked Malcolm. "Dude, do me a favour, I'm very hungry right now and I'd really prefer if you didn't spoil my appetite." I said. KG obviously had to make a comment about the drama in the house before the doorbell went off. I went to open and it was Gavin. "Where is he?" he said as he entered the house. I told him to calm down and not cause any drama because we still had to deal with the situation before he reacted.

We sat down to have dinner. Everyone sat there in their duos and Gavin was just looking at Malcolm whilst playing with his knife. I thought he was going to do something very stupid so I got up and went to my bedroom before things got out of hand. I didn't want to be a part of that drama.

Busted! - Chapter 8.1: You're Lying Right?

I went to go see my doctor because I had actually started to believe that I was stressed and that I wasn't aware of it. He told me that I was overworking myself and that it would be advisable for me to stay home until the following Monday.

Immediately after that, I headed to the spa to pamper and rejuvenate myself. I am a very self-conscious person and when someone highlights a flaw I knew nothing about, I try to fix it if not make it look better. When I was done with everything, I could actually see that I was coming back to life. All that was left was for me to go to the salon to get my hair done. When I got there, Noma was still busy with another client so I grabbed a magazine and sat at the waiting area. Noma's salon was the best place to go for gossip and apparently I was the trending topic that day.

"Me?" I asked Noma. "Yes, apparently you had a boyfriend in Cape Town whom you broke up with because your mother was having an affair with him!" she said. "You know that's not true, I mean you know my mother". I replied. "Of course I do, but that's the rumour right now together with the fact that you are sleeping around with married men" she added. "Married men?" I asked. "Yes, Menzi and that guy… your ex, Lincoln" she said. I just laughed, see that's the thing with gossip, the more it spreads, the more twisted it becomes. There's always an element of truth which is then stretched by different kinds of people and ends up losing its truth. I asked Noma who was feeding her all those lies and she told me it was someone I wouldn't even think of.

She refused to tell me who it was but what I knew is that the only two people that would know that kind of information were Sihle and Gavin whom did not go to Noma's Salon.

"So why didn't you tell me Malcolm was gay?" she asked and just like that, I knew exactly where she got her information from. Sihle obviously being a relationship with Malcolm meant that he shared things with him that he was not supposed to and then Malcolm brought them to the grapevine that is Noma's salon. "Now where did you get that one?" I asked as I rolled my eyes. "Malcolm is dating my friend, Gabriel. They were here an hour ago all cuddly on my couch." said Noma. I just froze. "Noma are you serious?" I asked just to be sure. "I'm telling you! They were here not so long ago. Malcolm was here to do his hair." Noma added. I didn't want to comment because then I'd be responsible for introducing yet another rumour so I just changed the subject and talked about other things just so that I could protect Sihle.

The only thing that was bothering me then was that I was stuck between letting Sihle know and trying to find out more before jumping into conclusions.

Lincoln sent me a text asking if I was going to head back to the office because he needed a ride home. It wasn't part of my plan but I went to the office to pick him up anyway. Upon my arrival I learnt that Kelebogile was there with him. I didn't even have time to ask why she was there, they got into the car and we went to the commune. On the way Lincoln kept passing compliments my way and I could see that Kelebogile was not taking kindly to it. In a nutshell, I couldn't wait to get home.  

Busted! - Chapter 7.5: Surprise!

Later on that day I received a visit from the most unexpected person, Thebe. He was in town so he decided to come and see me and he had also come to drop off a wedding invitation. Now you can imagine how powerless and fed up I was beginning to feel, so many weddings to digest!  I thought it was his until I opened and learnt that it was Thapelo's. It seemed like people were getting married everywhere. Thebe was looking hot as usual. Seeing him brought back a lot of feelings but I knew that I had to contain them for my mother's sake.

Thapelo is one of our straight friends from Cape Town. He managed a gay club that Thebe and I used to frequent and we ended up becoming friends because of his open mindedness. I believe that if a straight guy can be comfortable with gay folk, it means that they are already comfortable with themselves. Men that try to make gay men feel uncomfortable are mirroring exactly what it is that they feel. Thebe stayed for a while and we got to catch up and also discuss what we would wear for the wedding which was to happen in exactly two months from that day.

I called Cliff who works in the fashion department and I set up an appointment with him so that he could design something for me to wear at the wedding. That was another nice thing about 3Complex, the fact that we had everything we needed at our disposal.

Thebe told me that he had moved on with his life and that it was hard for him but he knew that it was for the best. He told me he missed me and I felt the same. I felt like if Thebe was still in my life, none of the drama that I was faced with in Joburg would have happened. My life with Thebe was very mellow and I got used to that serene kind of set up until I returned to Johannesburg. I was happy to learn that Thapelo was finally getting married to Olebogeng. Thapelo chased that girl for four years before she eventually gave in, and when she did, Thapelo did everything in his power to ensure that Ole stays happy. They had the kind of relationship everyone envied. One could have sworn that they never had downs in their relationship but the manner in which they handled their downs was what made them such a special couple.

Thebe left and then I went up to the fashion department to see Cliff. He took my measurements and highlighted the fact that I was losing weight. I just laughed it off. He then told me that he would send me some sketches the next day so that he could know what it is that he must make for me. "So do you really think I lost weight?" I asked him because I was really concerned. "Darling, have you looked at yourself lately, you look like you died two days ago!" he said. Clifford was brutally honest and for the first time that day, I looked at myself in the mirror and saw how I let myself go since Cape Town. I was clearly not handling my break up with Thebe as well as I thought I was and obviously being in Johannesburg meant that I got to stress more than I would whilst I was still in Cape Town.

I booked myself into a spa that day and set an appointment with Noma who happens to be my hairdresser so that she could do something with my long disoriented dreadlocks.

Busted! - Chapter 7.4: Look Who's Talking!

As were driving to work, Lincoln told me that his late uncle had been frequenting his dreams. He asked me what it meant and this was because one of my gifts was the ability to interpret dreams. I told him that his uncle was trying to communicate something to him and that he should just listen.

"Earl, I love you" Lincoln said out of the blue. "And then? Are you okay?" I replied trying hard not to laugh at him. He then told me that he hated how close KG and I had become and that he was getting jealous. I honestly thought I was the only one who suffered from jealousy. "You and I both know that there's no other guy out there for you but me" he said confidently with a smirk on his face. He was obviously taking reference from my failed relationship with Menzi. I tried hard not to laugh at him. As much as I loved Lincoln I didn't like the fact that he had an inflated ego and most of the time instead of listening to him, I would be focusing on popping it and shaking my head at how shallow he would sometimes become. "I really wonder who goes around feeding you all these lies." I said. I was obviously joking but he took it to heart and we spent the rest of our trip not talking to each other. I was fine with it because I knew Lincoln, he couldn't stay angry for  long and he always apologised, even when he was not wrong.

We got to the office and it was empty because we were there earlier than expected. I went to my office and Lincoln followed me. He entered and then he closed the door. He then looked around my office and I could see that he was really impressed with what he saw. In my head though, I stood there thinking "What is he up to now?" He then walked up to me and I walked away. The whole situation with KG had me feeling like a bit of a whore and I was trying my best not to feel that way about myself anymore. Lincoln then pulled me and started kissing me… I bit his tongue. "Are you mad?" he screamed as he pulled away. I just looked at him and smiled.

It's quite sad to see the kinds of situations girls get themselves into with men that are attracted to other men. Kelebogile was about to get married to Lincoln, the gayest man I know. I felt really sorry for her and I hoped that she got to experience Lincoln fully without me disturbing the peace. Lincoln stormed out of my office. I sat down and had myself a good laugh, I deserved it. Sihle called to tell me he would be coming in to the office later that day and that only meant that I'd have more work to do by myself.

Busted! - Chapter 7.3: Brain Torture

On the very same night, the same dream I had earlier on repeated itself. This time I was able to go and see what happening in the other grave which I didn't choose in the first dream. When I looked inside I saw a woman crying, I couldn't make out who the woman was but I saw that she was crying because a man was moving out. This time around, I wasn't afraid at all. I was very calm and watched everything as it happened even though I didn't know who the people were.

At 4am I woke up and I sat up trying to make sense of it all. I then checked my phone to see if there was anything I missed. Lincoln had sent me a text earlier asking me if I wanted to talk. I think it was obviously because he saw me lose at Monopoly and he's the only one who knows what it means when I lose. I wasn't comfortable with Lincoln and his texts because he was texting me behind closed doors but behaved totally different in front of everyone, almost as if I didn't exist. A few minutes later when I was trying to get back to sleep, I heard footsteps coming from the passage. I slowly got out of my bed and opened my door quietly to see what was happening. I then stuck my head out and saw Thobile and Nigel sneaking in to the bathroom. I tip-toed to the bathroom door and stood there to hear if there would be any exchange of information.

When I heard everything I needed to hear, I tip toed back into my bedroom and closed my door quietly. I wasn't the only one in the house with skeletons and I was somewhat relieved because I had found some form of leverage on Thobile. I went back to sleep and woke up at 7am to prepare for work.

That morning I was really missing Menzi, as much as our cohabitation didn't last, I was getting used to having someone next to me every morning. My dreams were still confusing, they were the only thing I had on my mind but I knew that they would make sense when the time was right so I just relaxed. When I was ready, I went downstairs to have breakfast. At the table I found Thobile, Lincoln, Sihle, Malcolm and KG. "Morning guys" I said as I sat down to join them.

"So, Thobile, how's the baby doing?" I asked. "Fine, just fine!" she replied. "I see, Lincoln would you like a lift to work?" I asked. He told me that he would travel with Sihle. Malcolm wasn't happy about that and asked why Lincoln wanted to travel with Sihle when he could travel with me. "Whoa dude! It's okay, I'll go with Earl." Lincoln said to defend himself. "No, sorry, I changed my mind. I don't do lifts anymore!" I said in his response and everyone laughed. "You're still as feisty as ever Earl" KG said flirtatiously. I just laughed. "This is really disgusting!" Thobile said as she banged both her hands on the table. Everyone looked at her trying to understand her reaction. "And then Thobile?" Sihle asked. "It's the pregnancy Sihle, Lincoln let's go!" I said as I stood up to leave for work. I didn't even finish my breakfast because Thobile was getting to me.

Thobile clearly didn't know what I had on her and she tried by all means to make me feel uncomfortable but I just let her be.

Busted! - Chapter 7.2: Dream On

That night I had the strangest dream ever. I dreamt that there was someone standing at my bedroom door calling me. "Who are you?" I asked. And in Menzi's voice the man replied telling me that I should follow him. I got out of my bed and followed him. We ended up in a place filled with light, the only colour I could see was white. The man then revealed himself. It was my late grandfather.

He showed me three graves and told me to pick one and head towards it to see what was inside. I chose the grave in the middle and walked towards it. I was so scared because I didn't know what to expect and when I looked inside I was shocked to find that there was a wedding in the grave and it seemed to me as though Menzi was the one getting married. I stood there looking at this wedding in the grave until Menzi looked up at me from inside the grave and started laughing. I then turned around to ask my grandfather what that meant but he was already gone.

I was all alone in the grave yard and because my grandfather had left me there, I was so curious to find out what was happening in the other graves. I went to the 3rd grave which was on the right and looked inside. I saw a body rising, I couldn't see who it was until he was fully out of the grave. It was Lincoln and he had a human heart in his hand. It was still beating. It clearly wasn't his because he was cut or anything and there were distant voices of women crying. "Hearts?" he said. I was so confused but at the same time I was so scared that I collapsed in the dream and then I woke up.

I jumped out of my bed and went to the bathroom to wash my face. I then went downstairs to see if anyone was still awake because I was afraid to go back to sleep. I was confused because I didn't understand what the dream meant. I must say, at that point I missed Menzi because I wouldn't have to go back to bed alone.

I found the boys playing a game of Monopoly, they played that game every Monday night. I joined them but I just kept on losing. I never suck at Monopoly unless I'm really unhappy. I then left them downstairs and went outside for a smoke and then I went back to bed, I was still very much shaken by the dream but I forced myself to sleep.

Just when I was about to pass out, Thobile sent me a text. It read: "I will keep my mouth shut on one condition…" I asked her what the condition was. She told me we'd talk the following day. Shortly after that, KG came to say good night and left.

Busted! - Chapter 7.1: Confrontation

As soon as I left Menzi's place, the aim was to go to Gavin's place but I didn't because I felt that I wanted to face the issue and get it over and done with. I drove to the Gigolo's Castle and everyone was there except for Sihle. Malcolm asked me where Sihle was and I told him he was at work. I had promised to drop Sihle something to eat but since I was home, Malcolm decided to be the Good Samaritan and did just that for me.

I sat downstairs with everyone else who was watching TV at the time. Nobody knew about the drama that had happened earlier except KG, Thobile and I. Thobile wasn't impressed with me, she got up and went to the kitchen and once she was there she called me. I went to speak to her. "Why did you do what you did?" she asked. I actually froze because I didn't know what the reason for my actions was. "I'm not angry at you or anything, you know very well that KG is with Lerato yet you can sleep with him under the same roof! If you don't tell Lerato what happened, I promise you I will!" she said. Her telling Lerato would just complicate things for everyone in the house. "I'll tell her when the time is right, I do reassure you that this was definitely the first and the last time something like this happened" I said. She rolled her eyes and reiterated the fact that if I don't tell Lerato, she will do it. Thobile felt that KG mistreated Lerato and she was tired of it, the situation between KG and I drove her even crazier.

Lerato then walked in to the kitchen looking very chirpy. She clearly wasn't aware of the fact that there was some sort of tension in the kitchen between Thobile and I, and that it had a lot to do with her. I was relieved that she came when she did because that meant I could dodge the conversation Thobile and I were having. "Anyone for a cup of coffee?" Lerato asked. "I'd like a cup!" I said with a smile, obviously a fake one at that. "Yeah! Sure! Whatever!" said Thobile. She was really angry and she couldn't contain it.

KG then walked into the kitchen, obviously because he thought that Thobile and I were probably updating Lerato on what had happened so he came to make sure that didn't happen. "Thobile, you do know that coffee is not good for pregnancy right?" he said as he laughed. I think he was trying to break the ice but I guess it was still too cold for that to happen. Thobile walked out of the kitchen immediately and I followed her. I went straight up to my room to get some rest. That day was too hectic for me to handle and the best thing I could do was to just sleep on it.

Busted! - Chapter 6.5: Not Yet Over!

So there we were in the car driving to Menzi's house, it was a bit tense but at least I knew what the reason for that was. A lot of things were going on in my head. I knew that what had happened that day would just make things very difficult for me and everyone involved. Thobile was going to tell Morithi, Morithi happened to be close to Lincoln, Lerato happened to be Lincoln's favourite etc. I knew I had to run before things got intense. I called Gavin to find out if I could sleep at his place that day because I didn't want to return to the commune to face the music. He was cool with it. My mother used to say: "keeping secrets is like being stuck in traffic, the more secrets you keep, the more the traffic." I felt like I was keeping too many secrets, some of which I happened to be a part of.

Menzi sat on his phone the whole time in the car and I could see that he wanted to see himself anywhere but in my car. My phone rang, it was Morithi. I was so nervous. I thought that maybe Thobile had told him about what happened so I ignored his calls. He kept on calling until I decided to answer and feel his wrath. Luckily for me, Thobile had told him that Menzi moved out and he was calling to find out if I was fine. Sihle then sent me a text telling me that he'd be home late that day as he was putting in some overtime.

Menzi was still seated in the car, quiet as ever and I didn't like it. "So it's quite obvious that now that we are no longer together, could we at least try out this friendship thing?" I asked. To be honest with you, I don't believe that two people can be friends after a relationship if they were never friends during the relationship. I honestly believe that relationships that last longer are those where the couples are more friends than they are lovers. In that kind of situation, life is smoother and a pair becomes very close because they relate to each other on a whole different level. Menzi then asked me why I slept with KG. I couldn't answer him because I didn't know what to say. I really had no explanation for my behavior. "Can we at least talk about this?" he asked. I swear I didn't understand why Menzi still wanted to solve things between us when I had done the unforgivable. "But why do you insist on us talking about things even when you're not in the wrong?" I asked. "Because I love you with your flaws, I'm not perfect myself. I'm not saying that things will get better overnight but they will, just don't give up on us" he pleaded. I wanted to cry because I don't believe anyone ever showed me love in the way that Menzi did. I know what they mean when they talk about a fool in love.

We talked for a while before coming to the conclusion that Menzi will go home and sort his issues out with his family. Whilst he did that, I wouldn't bother him, I'd just keep to myself and let him handle the situation the best way that he could. We were both keen on giving things another try but that involved having to face our demons before we could be together again…

Busted! - Chapter 6.4: Kick Out

Menzi arrived at the house whilst I was downstairs with KG and Thobile watching TV. I was on my phone the whole time because it felt a little awkward being around KG. "Hey guys!" Menzi greeted as he headed straight to the bedroom. I stood up and followed him and I found him sitting on the bed crying. I didn't even feel sorry for him; all I wanted was for him to rid himself of me. "Menzi, get yourself together, let's go!" I said. "Earl, can we talk about this?" he pleaded. "I can explain" he said. "First start by explaining why you never mentioned getting married to the mother of your child" I insinuated. I didn't know if it was even true or not so I guess what I was trying to do was to see if the situation was real or if Mandla was just being a jerk.

He didn't deny anything; in fact he was shocked to find out that I knew. He didn't even try to back himself up. I told him to take all his bags and put them in the car. "Make sure you don't forget anything" I added. I was so angry. I was also angry at the fact that his mom knew about the situation and continued to make me look like the dumb one. I never really understood what the notion behind that was. Menzi tried by all means to get me to understand the situation through his eyes but I wasn't listening. After some time, he gave up and started taking his bags.

I went out first and waited downstairs for Menzi. He came down and bid an emotional farewell to Thobile as they had become close whilst he stayed there. KG was unsettled by Menzi's departure because he thought that he was leaving because of what had happened between him and me earlier that day. I was just hoping that KG wouldn't say anything that would jeopardize the situation further but this was KG and he wouldn't let things go without having said a word. "Menzi, it was my fault man!" he said. "KG, shut up!" I said as I was trying to get him not to say anything further. KG was genuinely feeling bad about Menzi's move because he was under the impression that he was the one at fault. "What are you talking about?" Menzi asked KG. At that very moment I wished that the earth would just swallow me up and I not be a part of that conversation. "I'm the one who seduced Earl, it really wasn't his fault" said KG. I just closed my eyes and said a short prayer to myself. And just like that, the secret was out. Thobile overheard that statement and she couldn't contain her shock. Menzi looked at me and said "Mr. Perfect? Take me home! Now!" I stood there feeling so ashamed. We then went to the car and KG stayed behind with Thobile. See, the thing with KG is that he always said the wrong things at the right time. Not only did I have Menzi to answer to, but Thobile too. Things just got tense from that point forth…

Busted! - Chapter 6.3: Cover Up!

I arrived at Menzi's house only to find that his mother had gone to a church conference and was unreachable until Thursday which was three days later. Mandla, who happens to be Menzi's twin, is the one who informed me about his mother's whereabouts. Mandla knew me as Menzi's friend and when I opted to leave seen as the mother wasn't there, he insisted that I stay for a drink.

Mandla had been in UK on a soccer tournament. He and Menzi looked alike and whenever I looked at him, I would see Menzi and get really angry. "I've got to go!" I said as I stood up. Mandla insisted that I stay so that we could catch up. He tried to tell me about Menzi's child because he was under the impression that I didn't know. He then told me that he couldn't wait to be Menzi's "best man" on the day that he gets married to Zodwa. I could have laughed because I thought he was joking but it seemed like he was being serious. It looked like every guy I dated in the past somehow got married or engaged after me.

When I had had enough, I stood up to leave and Mandla accompanied me to my car. I didn't even wait for goodbyes and more conversation, I just drove off immediately. I felt really betrayed by Menzi I couldn't even help it. All I wanted to do was to get home and pack his stuff.

Upon my arrival, I headed straight to my bedroom and found KG stark naked putting lotion on his body. He saw me and he didn't even try to cover up, in fact he just smiled at me. I went out of my room as soon as I could and I closed the door. I took a deep breath and opened the door again, this time very slowly. I looked again and he was still there, naked! I stood by the door facing the opposite direction as I was waiting for him to put some clothes on. I was very uncomfortable. I asked him what he was doing in my bedroom and he told me that the other bathrooms were occupied so he used mine instead. "I hope you don't mind" he said. "No! I don't, it's okay." I said as I patiently waited by the door.

I stood at my door, still facing the opposite direction waiting for KG to get dressed so he could leave my room. I could have gone downstairs to give him some space but I just wanted to do what I came to do as soon as possible and whilst the adrenaline rush was still high. There was an awkward silence and before I knew it, KG had pulled me inside. He locked the door and started kissing me. He picked me up and threw me on to the bed before ripping my T-shirt apart. I could have complained about him ripping my T-shirt apart but I was still shocked by his raunchiness. He got on top of me and started caressing me; please beware of the fact that he was already naked and super hard. He then removed my jeans. At that point I could have tried to stop him but I was lost in the moment. He then removed my underwear with his teeth. His tongue somehow made contact with a certain spot on my pelvic area that nearly drove me to premature ejaculation. He knew exactly what to do. KG made love to my body, he kissed and licked every part of it that was not even prone to being teased and because he had already lubricated almost every part of me, I didn't even realize that the sex had already began.

He was rough and I was angry. I didn't know what to do with myself. KG gave me the best sex ever. He knew exactly what to do and where to touch; it was quite evident that I wasn't the first guy he ever slept with. After penetrating me, I thought we would be done but he rolled over and asked that I penetrate him. He was tight! Unlike him, I didn't know how to be rough so we could say that I made love to him. He wrapped his legs around my body and had a strong clench on my back. Being inside KG felt like a being on a joyride, I didn't even want to reach the climax. Eventually I did. We both rolled over and tried to catch our breath. He looked at me, I looked at him and then he smiled and kissed me before getting up and heading to the shower for the second time. I sat up and a lit a cigarette, anyone that smokes will tell you that one of the best times to smoke is after a good round of sex!

As soon as KG was done in the shower, I followed. He left my room and went downstairs. I then got dressed and started packing Menzi's belongings. I felt much chirpier than I was before KG and I did the deed. I felt like I could take on the world. At the same time, I felt really bad. I felt like I was cheating on Menzi but he had done so much lying that I actually decided that I was done with guys. I think we all feel that way after a messy relationship but then reality comes back to hit us in the face and calmly reminds us that we cannot survive on our own.