It was Saturday and the day of the party had finally arrived. I woke up next to KG yet again. Well he came to my room the night before because it was a tad bit cold and he couldn’t sleep so he decided to invade my privacy and keep me up all night talking about the future, his father and the party. I got to see the real KG. He had dreams and he wanted to make it far in life. I kept on giving him pointers on what he should do and I told him that if he needed any help he could consult with me or Sihle because I wasn’t sure how things really were between him and Gavin.
KG then confessed to me that he had always had feelings for me but he realized that I loved Lincoln because every time he would try to tell me how he felt, I talked about Lincoln. I just thought he was lonely. He was filling some void that made him feel as if he loved me when he really didn’t. He told me that it had been that way since high school but the problem was that I never saw him as a potential boyfriend, I only saw him as a friend. I really wanted to think that I was imagining things and that he wasn’t aware of what he was saying but he kept on talking about that the whole time. “Why do you think I kept on trying to break you two up? I wanted you for myself and seeing you with him just made me realize that he was more of a man than I was because he stepped up and stayed with you through thick and thin” KG added. As the conversation was deepening, Lerato called KG to tell him to wish Thobile a Happy Birthday on her behalf. That little devil! We didn’t even know that it was her birthday and she said nothing about it. I tried to get out of bed before KG pulled me back and tried to kiss me. I actually kissed him back and as intense as it was becoming, I kept stopping him from doing more than he was supposed to. “I love you Earl” he accidentally said. When he realized he had said that, he clenched his teeth and closed his eyes. I kissed him on the forehead and jumped out of bed.
I ran to Thobile and Morithi’s room to give Thobile a rude awakening. When people heard me singing to her, they too came running to the room as confused as they were and also started singing. We dragged her out of bed and put her in a tub of ice cold water. “You guys will give my babies the flu” she complained. We had clearly forgotten about her pregnancy, but it was just one random cold bath, I’m sure it couldn’t have hurt her. Morithi was out so we knew that he was getting her something. Later on that day, KG and I went to the shops to get her a present. Well that was the intention until I saw all those baby stuff, I couldn’t stop buying. KG kept being affectionate, pulling me, biting my ear amongst other things and I was just so uncomfortable because I didn’t know how to react. It felt good though. I told KG that I wasn’t ready to date again and besides even if I was, I wouldn’t want a guy like him. I wanted someone who would be able to be with me holistically, and that means no barriers, parents should know, he should be open and PROUD, the works. I thought that would turn him away. “Well we can let my mother know as soon as everything dies down.” KG said. I just laughed and continued buying things. I didn’t think he was serious.
KG was convinced that he was my soul mate. They say at the age of 21 you have already met your soul mate; I was 23 and still waiting. KG really wanted us to try something out. I really would have loved to but that meant a lot of things would change, besides I wasn’t in the mood to start again but he kept on insisting that he would make it work. He said he wanted to tell everyone about it and I told him not to rush into things. It seemed like the more I stopped him, the more eager he was to actually make things happen between us. What had I gotten myself into?
NB: Busted continues on the 15th of December 2014.
oh its the 23rd today bathing
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