As much as I wasn’t looking forward to seeing them, I really missed my best friends. Sihle, Gavin and I had come a long way and a big part of me just didn’t want to believe any of the stuff that had happened, and even if they did, I believed that we were so much bigger than that. Of course I didn’t know where their heads were at concerning this situation but I was pretty much ready to forgive and move on.
We got to work with Lincoln and we immediately bumped into Sihle. Lincoln just walked on by without even greeting him. I didn’t know if I should do the same or stand there and wait for him to say something. He then stopped me and we looked at each other for a long time without saying anything to each other. I was too afraid to say anything I guess. “Malcolm and I are at the Washout Hotel” he said. “Well that’s… nice!” I said as I nodded. The moment was so awkward, I stood there looking around for something to use as a scapegoat. He had papers in his hands; I asked him what they were for. Not that I cared, but I was just trying to create conversation.
“Do you really want to know or is this you creating small talk?” he asked. “Look, I really wanted to tell you about Gabriel but…” I said before he interrupted me by telling me that his case was even worse because he had slept with the one man he knew I had always loved. “Well it’s water under the bridge now, there’s nothing we can do to change what has already been done. We just have to move past this.” I said. “You’re right, I’m really sorry hey, I can’t even justify my actions. Anyway, I’ll see you later? At home?” he asked. I just smiled and nodded. “Later friend!” I said and we parted ways. The only thing that we were both left to deal with was our trust issues. I then walked to my office and found Lincoln sitting on my chair face down.
“Lincoln, are you okay?” I asked. “I’m fine, I’m just thinking about yesterday. Do you think I made a mistake by leaving Kelebogile for you?” he asked. I had no idea where he was trying to go with that question so I simply asked him if he was starting to have regrets. “Hell no babe! I’m happy with you” he said. “Then what’s the problem?” I asked. “My family. How am I going to tell them I broke up with Kelebogile? It’s just going to be a dramatic turn of events and I don’t think I’m ready for that because they will find out that I actually left Kelebogile for you, a guy” he said. I just looked at him and nodded. I was so sad.
I felt like the more that Lincoln and I moved forward, the more we went backwards instead. I couldn’t blame him for being worried about what his family would think of him. In fact I knew exactly how he was feeling. He then left my office and I just started working just so that I could get my mind off things. I told Lincoln to think long and hard about our situation, in the mean time, I was trying to teach my heart to be cautious.
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