The next day I woke up in the afternoon because I was really tired. Lincoln was acting weird because of our argument the previous night and I didn’t want to entertain him. I wanted to go see a movie so I went to ask Sihle if he wanted to come with but he said he was spending some quality time with Malcolm. Nigel said he was tired and that he’d rather sleep so I called Gavin and asked that we meet in Sandton.
A few minutes after preparing myself to meet with Gavin, I took a boring drive to Sandton. The neighbourhood was so quiet. Everyone was just minding their own businesses that day. I got to Sandton and met up with Gavin and together we went to go check out a movie before heading to the bar for drinks.
After the movie as we were on our way to the bar, we approached Menzi and he was with Zodwa and his child. Gavin tried to convince me to turn around and we go the other way but I simply told him that it was okay. When I saw Menzi at KG’s dad’s funeral I knew that he was okay since his disappearing act and I made peace with the fact that as much as he made a return, he clearly didn’t want me in his life because he never even bothered to tell me that he was back. He simply discarded me. I greeted him and Zodwa and we continued walking as if nothing ever happened. “How do you do it?” Gavin asked. “Do what friend?” I asked. “How do you remain so calm when approaching a situation like this?” he asked. “Meditation! Lots and lots of meditation boo!” I replied.
We sat down to have drinks and before we left the mall, we went to go shop for a gift for Thapelo’s wedding. Thebe had only sent me two paired invitations and I gave one to Sihle so that he could go with Malcolm. Gavin wasn’t interested in going to a “straight” wedding because he was tired of them.
On my way home I passed a beautiful house that was on sale in Rosebank. It really caught my eye so I decided to pull over and view it. Coincidentally it was being sold by 3Complex Properties. It was stunning. I can’t even describe what it looked like but it was just stunning. It had a beautiful open plan kitchen and a huge walk-in closet. I had always wanted a house that had a perfect version of those two things so I immediately called Kabelo from the Property department and told him to remove the house off of the market. I know it was a spontaneous decision, but if you were to walk in to that house… you’d never want to leave!
I drove back home and when I got there, I found Kelebogile. I greeted her and went straight up to my bedroom because I wanted to avoid any further conversation with her. She and Lincoln seemed to have been talking about something very serious. Sihle came to my room to tell me that Kelebogile had come to say hi to him. I didn’t believe that, I knew exactly why Kelebogile was there and it wasn’t because of Sihle. She was becoming a nuisance. “There’s something I need to tell you but you have to promise not to tell anyone.” Sihle said. “Okay, shoot!” I said. Lincoln then came into the room and decided to lie next to me. Sihle got the message and left without telling me what he wanted to tell me.
“So you and this girlfriend of yours, can’t you guys meet somewhere else?” I asked Lincoln. “She wasn’t here to see me; she was here to see Sihle. You can go ask her if you like” he said. “Lincoln… I’m so tired of all of this. I think we need some time out, just to be by ourselves and think about where we're headed. I’m really tired. This is not what I signed up for!” I said to him. “So you’re leaving me?” he asked. “For now…” I replied. He went ballistic and as soon as that happened, I totally muted him. I hardly heard anything that he said because I knew that whatever he was saying was coming out of anger and it would probably hurt. “You just need to clarify things Lincoln. Is it me or her?” I asked him as I grabbed my keys and an overnight bag.
I checked into the hotel and as soon as I was done with that, I switched off all my phones and fell asleep.
The next day saw Lincoln and Sihle showing up together at the hotel. “He just wouldn’t let me go! I had to bring him here” Sihle said. “It’s okay, could you kindly excuse us friend” I asked and Sihle left. Lincoln sat down and poured his heart out. For the first time I actually saw Lincoln for who he really was. He was a man that couldn’t believe that he was in love with another man. And this wasn’t just an ordinary love, he loved just one guy and that’s the only guy he would love in his entire lifetime otherwise he’d fall in love with women. Lincoln wanted to do anything it took to make me happy and he knew that he wasn’t ready but he was more than willing to try until he bled…
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