Busted! - Chapter 11.5: Saturday: The Big Guy Day

It was Saturday and the day of the party had finally arrived. I woke up next to KG yet again. Well he came to my room the night before because it was a tad bit cold and he couldn’t sleep so he decided to invade my privacy and keep me up all night talking about the future, his father and the party. I got to see the real KG. He had dreams and he wanted to make it far in life. I kept on giving him pointers on what he should do and I told him that if he needed any help he could consult with me or Sihle because I wasn’t sure how things really were between him and Gavin.

KG then confessed to me that he had always had feelings for me but he realized that I loved Lincoln because every time he would try to tell me how he felt, I talked about Lincoln. I just thought he was lonely. He was filling some void that made him feel as if he loved me when he really didn’t. He told me that it had been that way since high school but the problem was that I never saw him as a potential boyfriend, I only saw him as a friend. I really wanted to think that I was imagining things and that he wasn’t aware of what he was saying but he kept on talking about that the whole time. “Why do you think I kept on trying to break you two up? I wanted you for myself and seeing you with him just made me realize that he was more of a man than I was because he stepped up and stayed with you through thick and thin” KG added. As the conversation was deepening, Lerato called KG to tell him to wish Thobile a Happy Birthday on her behalf. That little devil! We didn’t even know that it was her birthday and she said nothing about it. I tried to get out of bed before KG pulled me back and tried to kiss me. I actually kissed him back and as intense as it was becoming, I kept stopping him from doing more than he was supposed to. “I love you Earl” he accidentally said. When he realized he had said that, he clenched his teeth and closed his eyes. I kissed him on the forehead and jumped out of bed.

I ran to Thobile and Morithi’s room to give Thobile a rude awakening. When people heard me singing to her, they too came running to the room as confused as they were and also started singing. We dragged her out of bed and put her in a tub of ice cold water. “You guys will give my babies the flu” she complained. We had clearly forgotten about her pregnancy, but it was just one random cold bath, I’m sure it couldn’t have hurt her.  Morithi was out so we knew that he was getting her something. Later on that day, KG and I went to the shops to get her a present. Well that was the intention until I saw all those baby stuff, I couldn’t stop buying. KG kept being affectionate, pulling me, biting my ear amongst other things and I was just so uncomfortable because I didn’t know how to react. It felt good though. I told KG that I wasn’t ready to date again and besides even if I was, I wouldn’t want a guy like him. I wanted someone who would be able to be with me holistically, and that means no barriers, parents should know, he should be open and PROUD, the works. I thought that would turn him away. “Well we can let my mother know as soon as everything dies down.” KG said. I just laughed and continued buying things. I didn’t think he was serious.

KG was convinced that he was my soul mate. They say at the age of 21 you have already met your soul mate; I was 23 and still waiting. KG really wanted us to try something out. I really would have loved to but that meant a lot of things would change, besides I wasn’t in the mood to start again but he kept on insisting that he would make it work. He said he wanted to tell everyone about it and I told him not to rush into things. It seemed like the more I stopped him, the more eager he was to actually make things happen between us. What had I gotten myself into?

NB: Busted continues on the 15th of December 2014.

Busted! - Chapter 11.5: Saturday: The Big Guy Day

It was Saturday and the day of the party had finally arrived. I woke up next to KG yet again. Well he came to my room the night before because it was a tad bit cold and he couldn’t sleep so he decided to invade my privacy and keep me up all night talking about the future, his father and the party. I got to see the real KG. He had dreams and he wanted to make it far in life. I kept on giving him pointers on what he should do and I told him that if he needed any help he could consult with me or Sihle because I wasn’t sure how things really were between him and Gavin.

KG then confessed to me that he had always had feelings for me but he realized that I loved Lincoln because every time he would try to tell me how he felt, I talked about Lincoln. I just thought he was lonely. He was filling some void that made him feel as if he loved me when he really didn’t. He told me that it had been that way since high school but the problem was that I never saw him as a potential boyfriend, I only saw him as a friend. I really wanted to think that I was imagining things and that he wasn’t aware of what he was saying but he kept on talking about that the whole time. “Why do you think I kept on trying to break you two up? I wanted you for myself and seeing you with him just made me realize that he was more of a man than I was because he stepped up and stayed with you through thick and thin” KG added. As the conversation was deepening, Lerato called KG to tell him to wish Thobile a Happy Birthday on her behalf. That little devil! We didn’t even know that it was her birthday and she said nothing about it. I tried to get out of bed before KG pulled me back and tried to kiss me. I actually kissed him back and as intense as it was becoming, I kept stopping him from doing more than he was supposed to. “I love you Earl” he accidentally said. When he realized he had said that, he clenched his teeth and closed his eyes. I kissed him on the forehead and jumped out of bed.

I ran to Thobile and Morithi’s room to give Thobile a rude awakening. When people heard me singing to her, they too came running to the room as confused as they were and also started singing. We dragged her out of bed and put her in a tub of ice cold water. “You guys will give my babies the flu” she complained. We had clearly forgotten about her pregnancy, but it was just one random cold bath, I’m sure it couldn’t have hurt her.  Morithi was out so we knew that he was getting her something. Later on that day, KG and I went to the shops to get her a present. Well that was the intention until I saw all those baby stuff, I couldn’t stop buying. KG kept being affectionate, pulling me, biting my ear amongst other things and I was just so uncomfortable because I didn’t know how to react. It felt good though. I told KG that I wasn’t ready to date again and besides even if I was, I wouldn’t want a guy like him. I wanted someone who would be able to be with me holistically, and that means no barriers, parents should know, he should be open and PROUD, the works. I thought that would turn him away. “Well we can let my mother know as soon as everything dies down.” KG said. I just laughed and continued buying things. I didn’t think he was serious.

KG was convinced that he was my soul mate. They say at the age of 21 you have already met your soul mate; I was 23 and still waiting. KG really wanted us to try something out. I really would have loved to but that meant a lot of things would change, besides I wasn’t in the mood to start again but he kept on insisting that he would make it work. He said he wanted to tell everyone about it and I told him not to rush into things. It seemed like the more I stopped him, the more eager he was to actually make things happen between us. What had I gotten myself into?

NB: Busted continues on the 15th of December 2014.

Busted! - Chapter 11.4: Face To Face

A few hours later, I found myself sitting in my bedroom just to avoid everyone. I heard the doorbell ring downstairs and I ignored it because I knew whoever was downstairs would handle it. I heard that it was Gavin and he was asking where I was. I heard footsteps approaching my bedroom and I sat up straight waiting to hear what he had to say. He came into my bedroom together with Sihle and he locked the door. “You two are going to solve your issues, I don’t care how long it takes because I actually have my vodka with me!” Gavin said as he made himself comfortable. I had nothing to say to either of them. I just sat there waiting for Sihle to say something whilst Gavin mixed a drink for himself. It was very awkward; I kept looking around my room and discovered corners I had never seen all my life. Sihle stood by the door with his phone in his hand busy texting whoever it was that he was texting. Gavin kept on looking at us both waiting for one of us to say something. Sihle was stubborn, but I was worse! I sighed and then looked at the ceiling. Sihle kept tapping his feet waiting for Gavin to open the door so he could leave but that wasn’t going to happen. “Okay… fine! I’m sorry Earl.” Sihle said. “Finally someone breaks the ice, my drink was becoming warm” Gavin said as he flicked his imaginary weave. I just looked at Sihle and said nothing. “I knew this was a bad idea Gavin, let’s go!” he said. “Earl? Have you misplaced your tongue? I can give you mine if you like” Gavin said and I just broke into laughter. Sihle tried hard to contain his laughter but he too started laughing and before you knew it, we were all laughing. We talked things over and we were fine once again. When we were cool, Sihle and I attacked Gavin for his bottle so that we could drink. “I needed this!” I said. Things between the three of us were fine again but I learnt my lesson and I was going to walk away with it quietly.

Sihle then told me to go talk to Kelebogile about this whole Lincoln saga because she felt threatened by me. I contemplated doing that until we all went downstairs to join everyone that was there. I went to Kelebogile and asked her to follow me outside where I would talk to her about Lincoln. She came and we talked about the kiss. Kelebogile wasn’t fazed by the kiss, what really shook her up was the stuff that KG said. “Earl… please! Just give me Lincoln, you’re good looking, you’re talented, you have a good thing going, you can get any man you want. Just don’t take Lincoln from me…please!” Kelebogile begged. I just sighed and promised her that I would keep my distance just to make her happy.

The time for Lerato to part ways with us had come. Her man came to fetch her and she was excited to leave. We all walked her to the car and said our goodbyes. She promised that she would see us at The Big Guy’s funeral and that we should try and not fight for at LEAST a week. As soon as she left, we could feel the void. Lerato had always been one of the loudest people in the house and it was just silent. Texts from people coming to the party kept flocking in and I told KG that we should cancel the party. “NO! You can’t do that, my dad knew I loved to party, I’m pretty sure he won’t have a problem with this. Besides, we’re celebrating his life!” said KG. We all looked at each other and what I could pick up is that we were actually judging KG but he was right, his dad just wanted us to be happy and that’s what we were going to do. The more things change, the more they stay the same.

Malcolm and Sihle decided to cook for everyone that day. The mood was a bit better than it was earlier on except that Malcolm nearly died. Apparently after realizing that he was burning something, he started a fire. I have no idea how the fire started but all I know is that he himself had to be extinguished even though all he left with was a little boil on his hand. Had it not been for Sihle and the fire extinguisher, we would have lost Malcolm. We obviously had to get take-outs and we sat at the table laughing at how stupid Malcolm was in the kitchen. Eventually we all headed to our respective rooms and slept.

Busted! - Chapter 11.3: Be Strong

In the car, KG told me that he had confronted his friends about what they said and I guess that is why they kept on apologizing to me. I didn’t see why he bothered because it was quite evident that I was the slut in that whole situation. It was also quite evident that everybody else thought the same about me. It was sad but I just kept telling myself that it will be okay.

We arrived at KG’s house and the mood there was different from the one I had left at the commune. It was very peaceful and somber. As soon as we entered the house, KG ran to his mother to give her a hug and they sat there together crying. It was really sad seeing them that way that I also started to cry. His mother came to me and hugged me too. She was a strong woman and she kept on saying God knew what He was doing. She knew that I loved The Big Guy almost more than the other boys. There were other people there as well; friends, family and colleagues and when we began to calm down, KG’s mother gave him a box that his father had left him. KG opened the box and inside he found a lot of money and a letter that read:

“My only son,
This is a token of my appreciation for the love and respect you have shown me through the years. Do with it whatever you can. Take care of your mother for me and keep coming to see her because it will be very lonely without me this side. Tell Nigel that he mustn’t give up on his dreams. Tell Lincoln to take care of Kelebogile. Tell Earl I said that the only way he will be rich is if he’s self employed because he’s hot-headed. Lastly, he and Malcolm should both cut their hair. I know that these boys will take good care of you because I know real friends when I see them.
Love always,
You know who.”

KG and I laughed at some of the things his father had said about us. KG shook his head and properly folded his letter and put it back in the box. It was a very sweet gesture from his father and it made me love him even more. People kept flocking in to show their respect. Whilst KG was being a man making sure things ran smoothly. I sat on the mattress with his mother, only because she asked me to. People that didn’t know KG thought that I was KG but his mother would always introduce me as her other son. After some time KG and I left to head back to the commune.

When we arrived, we found a bunch of bags stacked at the door step. Lincoln, Nigel, Kelebogile, Lerato and Sihle were moving out. I kicked Lincoln and Nigel out, Kelebogile is obviously following Lincoln, and Lerato had already announced her move but Sihle? Well I wasn’t going to fight that.

As I entered the house, the TV was turned off because we were about to have another house meeting. Lincoln and Nigel apologized for their actions in front of everyone and I actually felt nothing, I was so numb to what they had to say. Sihle then told me that he was moving out because I had stinking attitude and I believed that the world revolved around me. “You insist on calling the shots all the fu*&ing time, I can’t take it anymore! You can stay here in your MOTHER’s house because that’s how much of an achiever you really are!” said Sihle. I was really hurt by that statement. I didn’t even want to fight with him; I just looked at him and smiled whilst shaking my head. Lincoln asked that I forgive them and let them stay. “Sure, just remember that from now on, you’re on your own!” I said. Gavin was also there but only because he loves drama and he wanted to see what was going to happen. “Gavin, take whatever it is that you might have left here, we’re leaving. You can either come with me or stay here and be treated like a slave” Sihle said to Gavin. I could feel the tension rising. Sihle was literally telling Gavin to choose between him and me. And in case you’re wondering, Gavin chose Sihle. As soon as they left, I went up to my bedroom and broke down one last time, because I told myself that after all that is done, I wouldn’t cry for shit! To think that all of this happened because of a stupid game…

Busted! - Chapter 11.2: Rearrangement (continued)

I went upstairs to wake KG up and tell him what his friends thought about him being in my bed the previous night. He was a little disappointed by their actions but he wasn’t in the mood to react and that’s obviously because of the way he was feeling at the time about his father. I told him to wake up and take a shower so that we could be able to leave and go to his parents’ house. I went back downstairs to make sure that I was heard. Lincoln and Nigel probably thought I was joking but I was tired of their shit, I wanted them out! On my way downstairs I bumped into Kelebogile who begged me not to kick them out. “So now you feel that you’re ready to talk to me, in fact, follow them!” I replied. I was so angry that I actually found myself shaking and seeing their faces just made me feel like picking up something and throwing it at them. I felt so disrespected and belittled.

I drove out immediately to go to the service station. I don’t even know what it was that I went there for but I literally just wanted to see myself out of that house before I did anything that I would regret later on. I couldn’t even think straight. I found myself driving around the area, I had no idea where I was going but I knew that the last place I wanted to see myself was at that house. After a few minutes of pointless driving, I decided to turn back and fetch KG so that we could go to Soweto. Nigel stood in the drive way expecting me to stop my car so that he could talk to me but when he saw that I wasn’t in the mood for his games he quickly jumped out of the way, I was actually going to bump his stupid a#$! I got out of my car and went inside the house; he followed me and started apologizing. I told him how I didn’t want to hear anything that he had to say and that he should just leave before I did something stupid. After the fight with KG, nobody wanted to challenge me because they saw that I can get really mad if I want to. There was so much happening in the house. People were just going up and down and I was just not having it.

As I went up the stairs, Lincoln pulled me. I grabbed him by his shirt and I told him never to pull me like that again. He was shocked by the amount of power I had when I was angry. He then apologized again and I told him to get out of my house! I went into my bedroom and locked the door before I broke down by myself. I realized that what I was feeling wasn’t anger, I was actually hurt. I could handle people talking badly about me but not in that nature. I was in a lot of pain. I took a few deep breathes just to calm myself down.

A few minutes later, KG knocked on my door to let me know that he was ready to leave. I took everything that I needed and went downstairs. Lincoln and Nigel were still there, this time they were trying to get Sihle to talk to me since we were close but he knew that too would be impossible because he was “mad” at me for the most stupid thing in the history of our friendship. “Earl” Sihle called. “What?” I angrily asked. “Can we talk about this?” he requested. “No, why don’t we play Spin The Bottle instead?” I said as I went to my car. I told him to help his friends leave my house because I didn’t want to see them when I returned. KG came and we drove off to his place.

Busted! - Chapter 11.1: Rearrangement

The next day, which was a Thursday I woke up feeling tired because I had spent half the night taking care of KG. It was a holiday though and it meant that I didn’t have to go to work and that’s the only thing that made things better. KG kept waking up in the middle of the night crying and every time that happened, I had to be a good friend and comfort him. He asked that I accompany him home where his parents lived. The Big Guy was a very cool guy and I imagined that there would be a lot of people at his funeral because of the good heart that he had.

I woke up and slowly removed KG’s arm off of my waist. His mouth was wide open and he was drooling. I just pressed his lips together and went to take a bath. He needed all the sleep he could get. As I was in the bath tub, I fell asleep and when I opened my eyes I found myself in a pool of blood. I was frightened by the scene and I jumped out of the bath tub only to find that I was hallucinating. I don’t know what that was about but it really freaked me out.

I wanted to go back to bed and sleep that day but I couldn’t because KG had taken over my bed. He slept like an acrobat! I just had to suck it up and find something to do that morning.

I went downstairs to join everyone else and I found Sihle and Kelebogile in the lounge having what seemed to be a very deep conversation. At the table I found Thobile and Zama also gossiping, they stopped talking when I walked in and gave me weird looks. In the kitchen I found Nigel and Lincoln. I greeted them and boiled the kettle to make myself some coffee. They didn’t reply in fact I found them looking at me like I had killed their parents. I was confused as to why they would give me that kind of attitude that early in the morning and I spent a few seconds trying to figure out what it was that they were mad about before asking them. “KG’s father passes away and you see that as an opportunity to jump into bed with him!” said Lincoln. I swear all hell broke loose when he said that. I didn’t believe that they actually thought that I was moving in on KG.

“Excuse me?” I said in reply to Lincoln. “You are disgusting man, that was really low of you” said Nigel. I never really pulled rank on anyone that lived in the house and they basically lived there almost for free. “Get the fuck out of my mother’s house! Both of you!” I said as I left the kitchen. I didn’t even wait to hear what they would say; all I knew is that I was tired of people reminding me how disgusting I was when I literally sacrificed my life to make sure that their needs are met. I also hated how it’s always the gay guy who felt the wrath when KG is the one that actually came to my room. I didn’t even sleep with KG but the fact that they thought that of me confirmed every stereotype there is about gay people. People look at us and automatically think we are whores or something of that nature. I really did not care what they had to say about KG being in my room; all I knew is that I wanted them out of my house, for good!